Very touching and meaningful story. A Diary ** from a guy


*January 2*
Do you still remember the first time we met? It was the first day in
school.
I was hurriedly entering the school gate when I bumped into you as
you
stepped out of a luxurious Volvo. The books you were holding fell all
over
the ground. I quickly picked up the books and returned them to you
along
with words of apology, but all you showed me was your intimidating
look. My
first impression of you was thatyou were a wilful girl born with a
golden
spoon in the mouth. I had rejected you completely and had hoped not
to meet
you again, but surprisingly you turned out to be my classmate.
*March 22*

I started to know more about you as days passed and my opinion of you
changed for the better on each passing day. I realised that you were
from a
wealthy family but definitely not a wilful girl. You were nice and
friendly.
You got angry that day we first met because I had left a footprint
marking
on the poetry collection you loved dearly. We met often during lunch
break
and I found something in you that was different from the rest of the
girls -
your passion for Chinese poetry. Often you would mumble something to
yourself. Initially, I thought that you were humming a pop song but
later I realised that you had been reciting Chinese poems from great
poets.
You were so knowledgeable that you knew every poet and which poems
they
composed. I was very impressed indeed.

*April 5*

I met you again in the study area. That day you were reading the
Chinese
classics "Romance of the 3 kingdom". Your ability to
appreciate Chinese
classics left me with admiration. You were indeed unique in many ways.


*May 5*

From then on, we would often meet in the study area to discuss about
the
good and bad things of the character in these Chinese classics. Do
you still
remember the time when we almost broke off because we could not agree
on
whether Jia BaoYu hurt Lin Dai Yu? Our argument was so fierce that we
never
talked for that week. But when Friday came, we still met in the study
area
and laughed over the incident. After which, another argument started.


*Aug 7*

I could not deny it. It was a feeling I could not identify
accurately.
Wenever you laughed over a joke with other guys, that emotion filled
my
senses. It took me a while before identified it. I was in love; the
feeling
was jealousy. I felt the need to express it. But, I was afraid...that
you
would dismiss my feeling, that you and I would be stuck in an
embarrassing
situation, that our long nurtured friendship would
crumble...therefore, I
kept quiet.


*Oct 1*

The news came as a shock to me. I was so worried when I learnt that
you had
fainted in the canteen. I was struggling to keep my worried face in
control
as I looked at the ambulance that carried you away.


*Oct 2*

It was drizzling that day. Our form teacher sadly announced that you
had got
cancer. As she finished her last sentence, outside the classroom, it
seemed
to me that the drizzle had turned into a downpour. I could only hear
the
sound of the rain, nothing more. I rushed to NUH ICU to see you
immediately
after lesson. Your face was whitish in colour, showing no trace of
red. I
learnt that you had just undergone an operation. The life-support
system was
just beside you with tubes piercing mercilessly into your left wrist.
"I am
all right, it is just a serious case of anemia. Believe me, my
parents told
me that". you said convincingly. I knew fully well what you were
thinking,
you did not want me to be worried. "Are you comforting yourself
or
comforting the fears and hopelessness that was written all over my
face?", I
thought to myself. I was not strong enough to disagree with you and I
nodded
my head with a forced smile. You responded with a smile too-with
great
effort.


*Oct 5*

It was a ordinary day but to me, it was an important day. I felt an
impulse
to express my love. I walked over to the side of your bed, holding
your
hand. I told you the story of how an ordinary guy fell in love with a
girl
who likes poetry and Chinese classics. As I told my story, my eyes
started
to flood with water, and uncontrollably my voice started to choke,
and
finally I broke into tear But you held my head against your body and
with
watery eyes, said: "I understand such a love, so did the
girl." I returned
my eyes to her and at that moment, her tears dropped, and for the
first
time, I saw some redness on her lips.


*Oct 26*

It was the last day of examination and I rushed to NUH to continue my
story.
When I reached there, I only saw the nurse arranging the bed you once
slept
on. When I asked about you, the nurse told me expressionlessly that
you had
passed away. It was a bolt from the blue for me. I stood motionless
for a
long time. I hated myself for spending the last few days preparing
for the
last examination paper. I hated myself for not staying longer the
last time
I visited you. I hated myself so much...but you were gone...... I
can't
remember how I got home that day. When I woke up, I was already in my
room.
The pillow I slept on was wet. The next day, I went for the funeral.
I heard
from your father that on the day you passed away, you were still
reading the
Poetry collection I gave you as a gift for your birthday. Standing in
front
of Your portrait, I had no tears, they were used up on the day of
your
death. All I knew was sadness, my heart was like shattered into
pieces and
died.


*Jan 2*

A new girl has taken over your seat. She does not like poetry, but
she likes
to hum pop songs. When I asked her if she knows Jia Bao Yu, she
replied:
"What talking you." Yes, you were gone. But to me, the seat
is still
unoccupied, and maybe no one will ever occupy it......

IF U TRULY LOVE THAT SOMEONE... JUS GO RIGHT UP TO HIM OR HER OR GIVE
A
PHONE CALL RIGHT NOW TO SAY "I lUV U " AND EXPRESS YOUR
FEELINGS FOR THAT
PERSON B4 IT'S TOO LATE!!!!!


A Guy would rather shed blood than shed tears but that's because he
has yet
experience sadness. The moral of the story is to treasure your love
ones coz
they might not be always around. Share this story to those you
cherish most
and let them feel their "presence" are important as they
are part of our
lives too!!



*"Fate brings us together, but it's still up to you to make it
happen."*