it has been nearly 7 months from that very day.actually its only like 2 more days to our 7th month.to be exact.the relationships has had its ups n downs.but we managed to pull through.it has been a eventful 7 months.just like a rollercoaster ride.yup.but i really enjoy the ride.its worth it.=)

till now he's been a rather good bf.very caring n stuff.but most importantly he's able to ren my childish temper.n all e nonsense i've thrown at him.but i, myself, noe tt it isnt right to just blame everything on him whenever anything goes wrong.its like i just blame everything on him whenever i'm pms-ing.n if i'm in a foul mood or wat.den he's in for it.so sometimes when i think about it.i kinda pity him.its not he's fault.yet he's blamed for it.poor thing.=(.so i've decided to change a lil.be lil more sensitive.n always think abt e consequences before i do anything.lets just hope i'm able to do wat i say.

he might not be e most xi xin bf ard.but i'm fine with tt.cos i love him for e way he is.=).i can tell tt he's been trying very hard to please me.to be like e perfect bf to me.but its not necessary.cos he's fine as e way he is.really.i dun expect much.cos i noe nobody's perfect.nobody will be.just wan him be him.n be like ard whenever i need him.for support.for comfort.sounds simple eh?

mayb at times when he's out with e guys.i might get a lil unhappy.duno why lehx.mayb cos he's out with them.so i like cant talk to him for long on e phone.or mayb when i msg him den he never reply n stuff.mayb tt's why i might get a lil frustrated when on e phone with him ba.i'm so sorry.tt lil green jeaslousy monster always gets me.whenever such things occur.ya.so forgive me k.if i like not in e mood to talk to ya when u're outside or wat k.

am i expecting too much from him?i hope not.cos i dun wana be like those "i wan u to do this.i wan u to do tt.NOW" gf.seems a lil too demanding.it might just worsen e relationship.sigh.so hope i wont turn into tt ba.*prays.

wat i wan out of this relationship?hmm.all e basic stuff lorx.e love.care.concern.comfort.n a lil attention ba.yup.i dun need a lot of it.just a lil will do.just make me feel like i'm part of you*.your* life.make me feel impt.which you've already accomplished.=).n its my turn.i've decided to like commit myself le.mayb some of u might say tt i'm still young lorx.not ready for such things.still playful n stuff.but i'm not!i mean.if someone treats u very well.but u dun commit.den arent u letting tt person down?hmm.

hmm.think i gotta change my attitude on e phone le.like keep purposely cause an arguement to arise like tt.sigh.so gotta change lorx.hmm.like this morning.we were hvaing a nice lil conversation.n i had to turn nasty.sigh.so turned out tt things werent going smoothly.yup.had an arguement.ya.=(.it has been happening very often lately.ya.happened last night too.sigh.think i gotta do some soul searching le.hmm.

hmm.shall end here le ba.nighties.