reminiscing ;

its weird how sometimes people change. how once good or close friends become so distant.

i guess for my case. it has to largely my fault.):

seeing how i dont meet up with my secondary school classmates anymore is kinda sad. and actually seeing them still so close with one another is just making that feeling worse. sighs.

and it wonders me why i'm still so close with xuezhen and seokhui even after secondary school.

why did this friendship work and not the other? i ask.

the answer i'll never know.

part of me feels that this has always been a slight problem. that i was never actually part of the group. even when we were in secondary school. but thats just me.

and another part blames my poly schedule.): being all packed up with projects and datelines. and submissions. and work too. oh. and boyfriend. juggling way too many things. just didnt have the spare time to make an effort.

things with xuezhen was different. we always met up in a few months. either for valentine's day, my birthday or someone else's birthday. we would arrange and meet up. like recently we just met up for seokhui's birthday.

i dont know. probably i should make an effort now to improve the friendship with my classmates. probably. i should.

better to have more friends than strangers right?

or was it, better to have more friends than enemies?

shrugs. whatever it is. i guess i'll have to make the effort to make it work.

ps: sidetrack a little. mr.sim says i'm very willful.): rah him!