=(

its raining.i hate rainy days.):

they make me feel so sad.):

so lonely.):

ahhh!

ok.i'm begining to sound like a self pity person.lolx.

*yawn.

sianx.nothing to do.

would be flying off on sat le.yup.

SHOPPING!

whee~

got sooooooo MANY things i wana get.

gotta help pris get her stuffs.ayu, his shades.him, e stuff he needs.heex.as for myself.hmm.jeans.shades.bags.slippers.wallet.tees.skirts.jacket.n e list goes on.lolx.

hope e trip would be enjoable one.n not one tt turns out nasty.bluehx.

argh.

i'm so NOT your maid!

so STOP ordering me abt.

argh!

yet another day.

went to sch today.met sherrrie*terrence*huirong in e studio at ten.erm.huirong was late as usual.hmm.sherrie left at abt 1030am.cos her work place people called her n ask her go down to work.so she had to rush home to get her stuff.n den rush back to work.sighs.poor thing.did our tod project.finally finished it le.

oh ya.to all did students.

we dun have to do e p4 base le.will be doin in only when sch reopens.ya.so enjoy ur hols ba.(:

hmm.after that went queenstown with huirong*terrence for pool session.was fun eh?lolx.hmm.came up with lotsa crap.erm.backhand style?lolx.den i was so 'lucky'.kept hitting e white ball into e hole.lolx.erm.3 times in a row?sighs.): hmm.would be going again soon.but this time after gene's pop.yup.den can drag him along.lolx.

met uncle paul at queenstown just now.hmm.

it RAINED after the pool session!argh!so unlucky nowadays.esp with the weather.argh.=/.hmm.actually e rain was that heavy.so at least can walk in e rain ma.hmm.terrence lent us his jacket.ya.walked over to e bus stop.den while waiting for tt forever-taking-so-long 195.e rain got heavier.argh!my jeans was totally drenched!cabbed my way home.sighs.erm.was $3.50.yup.

got home.bathed.used e comp.den had dinner.slacked ard at granny's.watched tv.came home.slacked.went downstairs with pam.cos she wanted to get something to eat.went granny's again.slacked.ate.watched tv.came home.ironed e clothings.talked on e phone with him.nearly aruged.in a foul mood.ok.not foul mood.but kinda sad mood.n now.here i am online.just complaining.lolx.ok la.leaving le.or else someone would say i'm like a pig again le.):

`ciaos.

=(

sighs.

it aint easy to be me.

sighs.

sighs.i just realised that i'm so pessimistic.):

i f ...

If i say i cant live without you, can you always be
by my side?

If i say i miss you, will you be here for me?

If i say i cant get enough of you, will you spend
more time with me?

If i say i am happy, will you share the moments
with me?

If i say i am bored, will you spare a minute for me?

If i say i am sad, will you cheer me up?

If i say i am lonely, will you accompany me?

If i say i love you, will you love me back?

this is saddening.):

Message: A ger n guy speeding over 100 mph on
the road ...

Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on
yourself? Its bugging me...




(In the paper the next day):

A motorcycle had crashed into a building
because of brake failure. 2 people were on it,
but
only
1 survived.

The truth was that halfway down the road, the
guy realized that his brakes broke down, but
he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he
had her say she loved him & felt her hug 1
last time, then had her wear his helmet so that
she would live even though it meant that he
would
die.


Would you do this for someone??

If so, repost.

a girl's qns. n a guy's ans.

Message:
> THIS IS WHAT A GIRL TOLD A
> GUY:
>
> If you see me walking the road with
> someone
> else,
> It's not because I like his accompany...
>
> Its because you're not brave enough to
> walk
> beside me.
>
>
> If you hear me talking about him all the
> time
> Its not because he pleases me
>
> Its because you're too deaf to hear my
> heartbeat
>
>
> If you feel me falling with someone new
> Its not because I love him..
>
> But because you're not there to catch me
> fall
>
> If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
> I too don't know where the road is going
>
> Are we gonna cross each other's path
> Or just completely turn around?..
>
> Will we just let go of what we had
> Or go to the place where love is bound
>
> Don't let me walk with him,
> It's you I want to walk with..
>
>
> Don't let me talk of him,
> it's you I want to talk with..
>
>
> Don't let me fall for him,
> It's you I want to fall in love with..
>
>
> "HOW DID THE GUY REPLY?"
>
>
> When you thought I wasn't brave enough to
> walk
> beside you
>
> I was behind you every step of the way
>
>
> Still filled with awe because of the
> beauty that
> stand before me
>
>
> When you thought I was too deaf to hear
> your
> heartbeat
>
> I didn't want to assume anything
> And I was afraid to lose our friendship
>
>
> When you thought I wasn't there to catch
> you,
> It was because you never gave me the
> chance
>
> You never reached the bottom,
> you've already grabbed a branch
>
>
> If you feel like you are nowhere,
> I too am lost
>
> I too don't know where the road is going
> Are we just going to turn around,
> Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
>
> Will we just let go of what we had
> Or go to the place where love is bound?
>
> Don't let me walk alone
> I want to walk by your side
>
> Don't let me talk of something else
> It's you I want to talk with
>
> Don't let me fall for someone else
> It's you I want to fall in love with.
>
>
> WHEN I SAW YOU...
>
> I WAS AFRAID TO TALK TO YOU...
>
> WHEN I TALKED TO YOU...
>
> I WAS AFRAID TO HOLD YOU...
>
> WHEN I HOLD YOU...
>
> I WAS AFRAID TO LOVE YOU...
>
> NOW THAT I LOVE YOU ...
>
> I'M AFRAID TO LOSE YOU...
>
>
>
>
> SOMETIMES LOVE HURTS...
> BUT IF IT DOESN'T HURT...
>
> THEN IT ISN'T LOVE...
>
>
>
> HOLD ON TO THE PERSON U LOVE...
> BEFORE HE/SHE SLIPS AWAY...
> AND U CAN NEVER GET HIM/HER BACK..

welcome to my life.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life



like this song.(: kinda meaningful.

s'pore idol.

just watched s'pore idol.hmm.olinda is out le.sighs.was really hoping she n taufik would make it into e finals.but.seems like singaporeans like tt 5566 look alike guy more.lolx.olinda has such a GREAT voice!(: hmm.nvm ba.taufik.taufik.taufik.

sighs.feeling a lil irritated.all of a sudden.sighs.duno why oso.*argh.):

signing off le.

`ciaos.

SENTOSA

went to sentosa today.yup.with sherrie n huirong.(: was great!e sun was SHINNING!(: was supposed to meet at 9am.but guess everyone couldnt make it at tt time.everyone was late.lolx.esp huirong.so ended up we only got to senotsa at 10plus.yup.

was at siloso beach.(: peaceful.(: beach was kinda empty.(: tt was a gd thing.(: so e beach was mostly ours.(: e only thing was there was this noisy grp of guys.n they were ard e same area as us.*sianx.they were making SO MUCH noise!argh!

hmm.lied there.to bake myself.(: nice lovely sun!(: hmm.couldnt take e heat.so went into e water with huirong.ya.e water was awwww.cos e weather was so HOT!yup.hmm.den read a mag.erm.forgot wat le.but got alot of SHUAI GEs!*drools.ohoh.there's this guy.erm.wat's hus name.leslie duno wat ah.erm.he's 30 n he's e owner of TANNLIES n ELEMENTS!omg!he's sucha cutie!(: we all agree he's a HOTTIE!(: *drools.hmm.we were making so much noise abt tt guy lying there.lolx.such bimbos.lolx.

went to "pao shuai" again.this time all 3 of us went in.yup.disturbed sherrie abit.ya.oh ya.i mentioned tt grp of guys right?2 of them came to bother us.at first.we totally ignored them.but they just kept bugging.den they were like "eh xiao jie.wo peng you yao ni de dian hua." i was like "zhe bian de san wei dou NOT AVAILABLE le."but they JUST KEPT BUGGING US.so we decided to be more hen.said we werent interested in "xiao didis".lolx.we were laughing on e spot lorx.after we said tt.lolx.finally they gave up.heex.peace n quiet afterall.(:

huirong met new frens.*winks.erm.jiahui's sec sch classmates.ya.hmm.cos a couple of guys were burying her in e sand.den their frens walked over to see who so suay.den they popped e question."ni shi jiahui de nu peng you ah?".lolx.sherrie n i was shocked.wat a small world this is.lolx.

den it began to rain.n rain.n rain.n soon we were walking in e rain to e bathrooms.sigh.my towel was totally SOAKED!argh.): bathed n stuff.den e sun was out again.den we left e toilet.n guess wat.it RAINED e moment we stepped out!wat luck eh? hmm.was trapped at shelter there.had an ice cream.yummy.(:

left for 7-eleven after that.had cup noodles.yup.there was this grp of jap guys there.n i noticed tt they all plucked their eyebrowns!so nan kan!eeks!

left after eating.hmm.home now.n i'm feeling so hot.AM TOTALLY BURNED!my back is totally burned!my shoulders too!n my face!yup.hmm.came home n applied moisturiser.awww.so cooling.(:

i'm bored!

> 1. name: p a t s y. (:

> 2. gender: fe m a le

> 3. birthday: 1006! *winks

> 4. horoscope: g e m i n i. twins.

> 5. Primary school: chij kellock. (:

> 6. Secondary school: chij st theresa's convent.
(: ij girls are FUN!

> 7. Tertiary School: singapore poly.

> 8. level: f r e s h i e.

> 9. email add: moc.liamtoh@skwarnevele

> 10. shoe size: 3 - 4 ba.

> 11. height: one h u n d r e d and fifty t h r e
e cm.

> 12. Right or left handed?: r i g h t y.

> 13. Last 5 digits of your No: 80749

> 14. Age: 7 t e e n. (:

====================================
= > = > > f a s h i o n | s t u f f

> 1. where is ur favorite place to shop?:
hmm.anywhere ba.

> 2. have any tattoos or piercings? yup.

> 3. what is your fav clothes to wear?: something
simple. just jeans with a top ba.

> 4. what are your favorite shoes?: my converse
shoes! (:

> 5. have certain jewellery that you wear:
earring. necklace.

> 6. worst thing you've ever thought?: to commit
suicide

> 7. what are you wearing right now?: stuff worn
during stc days. stc guitar tee n fbt shorts.

> 8. how many pairs of shoes do you own? 2 ba.

==================================== >
~ Have you...~

> 1.Tried smoking: NEVER!

> 2.Taken drugs?: m e d i c i n e!

> 3. bungee jumped: haven yet.

> 4. made yourself throw up?: no.tt's dumb!

> 5. made yourself cry to get outta trouble?: not
tt i can rem.

> 6. fallen for your best friend?: hmm.nope.

=================================== >
Specifies ..

> 1. type of shampoo: dove.

> 2. what are you listening to right now?: e fan
blades.

> 3. the last person that called you?: h i m.

> 4. how many buddies u have right now?: i do not
know.

> 5. what is essential in your life: love. trust.
friends. family. cash. studies.

=================================== >
~Right now~

> 1. hairstyle: messy.

> 2. listening: my dajie.

> 3. make up: dont have.

> 4.thinking of: s o m e o n e. *winks

================================== >
~Do you believe in...~

> 1. Love: (:

> 2. Faith: ya.

> 3. Yourself: y e s.

> 4. Ghosts: sometimes.

> 5.Angels: definately. cos i've met some. (:

================================== >
~Who..~

> 1.sent you this survery?: was on e bulletim board.

> 2.do u think will reply?: *shrugs.someone as
bored as i am.

> 3.is in ur mind rite now?: h i m.

.4.is ur fav teacher? eh. mrs fung.(: my maths
teacher! couldnt have done it without her.n my
tuition teacher. (:

> 5.is ur idol?: no one in mind now.

=================================== >
~Last 24 hours~

> 1. Worn jeans? *shakes head.

> 2. Cleaned your room? nope.

> 3. Cried? nope.

> 4. go out? nope.

==================================== >
~choose one .. ~

> 1. Blue or Yellow? YELLOW!

> 2. Kiss or hug? : k i s s.(:

> 3. Summer or winter?:eh.would really like to
experience winter.

> 4. Sunny or rainy?: SUNNY! can suntan. (:

> 5. Chocolate or vanilla?: c h o c o l a t e.

> 6. Hanging out or chillin out?: both ba.

> 7. music or tv? m u s i c

> 8. Hamburger or Pizza? both.*yum.i'm hungry!

> 9. Smile or Laughing? both. (:

> 10. Sleeping or eating?: eh.tt's difficult to
choose since both are my fav hobbies.lolx.

>11. Mc Donald's or KFC?: macs. dun really like kfc.

> 12.Silver or gold?: neither. would prefer white
gold! (:

ARGH!

mums are way too troublesome!

*drumrolls*

she's so cute right?

PAM PASSED!

went out today.to meet bunk*sharon ng*n mysterious fren.lolx.been such a long time since i've met them.hmm.was late though.bluehx.seems like i'm always late nowadays.sighs.=(.had long john's for lunch.*yummy.=).rotted till like 3!ya.was waiting for sharon's mysterious fren.ya.sighs.

hmm.met bunk's cousin's cousin.such a long relation eh.lolx.hmm.fun loving girl.=).she went to pierce her ear.n think e person didnt do it correctly.so it hurt.den she did it again.ya.den.it was FOC!lolx.

got a msg from xuezhen today.asking me if i was going for e guitar bbq.guess i'm not.since i wasnt informed till today.ya.sighs.seems like i'm NEVER informed abt such stuffs.only someone would be.sigh.=(.nvm la.didnt go.cos didnt wana wei nan xuezhen.ya.came home after towning.ya.

oh ya.n PAM PASSED HER DRIVING TEST!!!!.she nearly wanted to drive me home.lolx.better not.dun wana die early.lolx.hmm.she msged me at abt 12 ah.during my lunch.

bought some cookies home.gave them to pam.ya.sort of a congratulation present.lolx.hmm.

would be meeting bunk*her cousin's cousin*mich tmr.goin SUNTANNING!!WOHOO!FINALLY!=)).

meeting them at 9 at harbour front mrt.sighs.gotta take mrt.sianx.=(.nvm.i'm goin SENTOSA!!heex.=)

friendster bulletin.

To everyone, regardless of which position you
stand in love.... Love is sumthing that has to be
cherished and requires commitment between
both people. Some often can keep true love and
live happily while others can't. When they let go
love, they have to be strong and when they are
stronger, they will find their true happiniess one
day. Love makes life very interesting, it's can be
something you look forward for but sometimes it
is like a knife in the heart. But the REAL meaning
of love cannot be described because every single
one of us has different defination of it. Imagine if
you ask your friends, they cannot describe or say
it with words. You maybe confused by love, but it
is a normal reaction. You DO get lost inside love
but love is something that grows, it is alive and
people has to learn to appreciate it each day. It
takes time to grow a beautiful flower. It is the
same for love. It does not come easily but can
leave easily... in other words, the flower can die if
you do not take care of it. Probably you have not
find the right love yet. It is better to take your
time
exploring love but remember not to rush it. Bad
things do happen on the way and love is NOT to
be blame. Sometimes it is because either side
(guy/girl) cannot accept the type of love, which is
why the meaning of love is different in everyone's
mind and heart. Now your heart has been hurt and
this is something very difficult to get through. This
is when your friends and family supports you. But
they can only support, YOU have to help yourself,
re-build what you have lost and eventually, before
you even know, you are ready to take love in
again. NEVER ever blame love for the injuries that
you have.When your heart is healed, there will be
a scar. The scar that will be in your heart - with the
memories that you've had, with the experience
that you have from the past love will help you get
through life more meaningful. It is never wrong to
listen to your heart. But many people do not
understand the meaning of 'listen to your heart'.
Many of them will even be more confused, and
they will just say 'i dunno...'. In today's world,
materialism has poison the minds of human, but
to which extend will that is, lies in each individual.
The mystery of love can never be revealed. No
scientists can actually do such detailed research
about it. As far as concern, there is no right or
wrong in love. So subjective it can be, what more
to learn and discover it? Back to love, it is
something that comes from the heart. Learn to
support and appreciate it is NOT as simple as
ABC. Everyone has love, but it is a different level
of love. The wonders of love just makes you a
more intereting and better person. So cultivate the
love, learn and never give up growing it. Heart
brokens are just a level that will carry you up even
though you cannot see it. So be STRONG if you
are broken in love and it will bring you somewhere
in life.

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= e V e =

sianx.

canot go suntan!

nobody pei wo!

sigh.

):

pam is e mastermind!

PAM HAS PASSED HER ILLNESS TO ME!!

ahhh!

ahhh.i'm falling sick le.feeling a little feverish le.sigh.):

I DONT WANA BE SICK!

(:(:(:

HE CALLED!!

*sians

wanted to blog yest.but blogger kept giving me problems.*diaox.

hmm.had to go to sch today.cos e lects wanted to de brief us.ya.gave us lotsa work to do during e hols.sigh.):

hmm.gotta touch up on e a1 panels.ppt.cadp.blah.blah.blah.

AND WE HAD TO CLEAR OUR DESKS!*pengs.had to carry home lotsa stuff.goin back tmr.just to finish clearing.sianx!*ARGH!

after sch.went town with sherrie.she wanted to get a skirt n a pair of shoes for work.yup.hmm.wanted to est first.so we headed down to cine for BK!*yum!den it began to rain!*argh.n we were STUCK at cine.cos e rain was too heavy!*bluehx.sigh.hmm.saw mich*dara today.wanted to use their umbrella.but nvm.so sherrie*me had to walk in e rain!so romantic hor.lolx.finally we werent stuck at cine.(:

shopped ard.looking for her skirt.yup.couldnt get any she liked.so we came home le lorx.yup.wanted to go sun tanning tmr.but guess our plans have changed.):

we'll be back in sch tmr.to collect our stuffs.sigh.

quizzzz

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monday blues. ):

hmm.went to sch today!like after so long!lolx.had to finish up on tt tod project.yup.so was meeting sherrie*terrence*huirong at 10 in e studio.ya.but huirong didnt turn up.sighs.kinda give up le.she's always either later or she doesnt turn up.msged her.she said she forgot.duno if its true or not.sighs.nvm la.as long as i do my stuff.n we get e project done.i dun wana care le.):

hmm.noticed tt terrence looked weird today.sighs.yuen lai you mi mi.sighs.

touched up on e ppt slides.den had to scan a few more pics.ya.still got lots more to do!yup.

hmm.after tt.headed to bugis.cos we wanted to eat.laoda joined us.yup.had PASTA MANIA!*yum.(:

came home after that.ya.

gotta go le.needa do some crunches n push ups le.gotta lose those flabs.):

`ciaos

i love my new layout.(:

i simply just adore my new layout.(:

haven been blogging much.too lazy i suppose.bluehx.listening to savage garden.hmm.pam is singing along.lolx.she's just trying to be funny.*diaox.

hmm.mum just changed phone.again.she bought that sony ericsson k700i.sigh.i wana change phone too.hmm.save up ba.pam is gloating over nothing.bluehx.hmm.NOKIA 7610!!!!.sighs.

f r i e n d s t e r

[01] first name: p a t s y (:
[02] middle name: l o s t girl _
[03] last name: peh.
[04] nickname: patpat.pepsi.pad.patsie
[05] gender: f e male
[06] age : 7teen
[07] birthday: 100687
[08] height: onehundred and fifty three cm
[09] hair color: brownish with golden streaks.so
ahlian.):
[10] eye color: h a z e l.(:
[11] race: cheena girl here.
[12] do you wear glasses or contacts: glasses. but
i'm just too lazy to.bluehx.
[13] do you have braces: used to.
[14] is your hair long or short: its neither.its
midway.
[15] where were you born: a hospital?
[16] current location: home.room.in front of the comp.
[17] zodiac sign: gemini.twins.
[18] how many languages do u know: two and a
half.heex.
[19] nationality : s i n g a p o r e a n
[20] bad habits : i'm a lazy person.
[21] piercings you have: two
[22] piercings you want: erm.dont know.
[23] tattoos you have: not yet.
[24] tattoos you want: still considering the factors.
[25] today's date: 311004.its huirong's birthday!
[26] the time: 1239am.
[27] ready for more questions?: ya.
SCHOOL LIFE
[43] are you still in school: like ya.
[44] did you drop out: definately no.
[45] current GPA, or last GPA: eh?
[46] favorite grade: hmm.
[47] least favorite grade: erm.D?
[48] favorite teachers/lecture: nope.not
currently.mayb my sec//pri sch teachers.(:
[49] least favorite teacher/lecturer: none ba.
[50] favorite subjects: MATHS!
[51] least favorite subject: dont have.
[52] do you buy lunch or bring it : most of e time
buy.or i'll bring if i'm broke or too BUSY with
projects!or i'll just forget about lunch.
[53] whats your CCA ?: not anymore.
[54] do you do any extracurricular activities:
isnt that e same as cca?.
[55] are you popular: lolx.funny question.how
would i know?
FAVOURITE
[56] dance: i cant dance!*diaox.
[57] least dance: *diaox.
[58] memory: pri//sec sch life!eh.frens.loved
ones.of her.and e current ones with him.((:
[59] least memory: moments i've cried.teared.got
angry n frustrated.
[60] most humiliating moment: lolx.dun wana mention.
[61] number: elevenrawks!!1361!
[62] clothing brand: eh.kinda switches every now n
then
[63] shoes: converse!
[64] saying(s): i'm bored! i'm hungry! i'm tired!
lolx.
[65] favourite TV show: no time for tv.
[66] sport: TENNIS.(:
[67] vegetables: dont they all taste the same?
[68] fruit: WATERMELON!
[69] movie: windstruck!SHARKTALE!nemo!
[70] magazine: no time.
[71] actor: eh?
[72] actress: m y s e l f ?
[73] candy: ALL!(:
[74] gum: eh?
[75] scent: ..
[76] choc bar: eh?
[77] ice cream flavour: cookies and cream!choco chip!
[78] color : YELLOW!
[79] seasons: windy.
[80] holidays: valentine's(:
[81] bands: none at e moment.
[82] singer: eh.m y s e l f ? h i m ?
[83] dance: eh?
[84] rappers: huh?
[85] types of music: sentimental love songs.*melts.
[86] things in your room: love my bed e most!(:
[87] place to be: d r e a m l a n d with h i m.
[88] radio station: erm.i just switch here n there.
[89] tv channel: no time for tv.
[90] food: no preference
[91] overall food: no preference
[92] store: eh?
[94] fast food: macs.bk.long john.(:
[95] restaurant: is swensen's a restaurant?
[96] shape: hearts(:
[97] song: ...
[98] person u hate most: no one.
[99]musical instrument: g u i t a r.*my baobei.(:
[100]what u wanna say: i m i s s you.(:

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got e pic.finally!(:

sin.sin.sin

lolx.i'm eating way too much.=/.way too much.had early dinner at 5plus.den mum cooked fried rice.so ate a lil.den granny wanted to go downstairs to eat.so tagged along.n therefore i ate again.=(.n i JUST had ice cream.bluehx.such a sin.=(.

sigh.guess i have to iron e clothings tonight again.=(

*argh

ahh! cant find e image for e layout. ):

change layout!

changed my layout!so would be removing my taggie.anything you guys can just leave a comment k?(:

life is so unfair!

life is just so unfair!!

why am i always made to do things against my will?sigh.

PRIMER THREE IS ABOUT TO END!!

MON 9 AM!

cant wait!

heex.(:

but i still got so many things to do.......=x

perfect bf?

1. Know how to make you
smile when you are down.

2. Say "I Love you" to you every minute od the
day.

3. Stick up for you, but still respects your
independence.

4. Sing to you.

5. Come up behind you and put his arms around
you.

6. Play with your hair.

7. His hands always find yours.

8. Be cute when he really wants something.

9. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork.

10. Tell you "You'll always be mine"

11. Never run out of love.

12. Be funny, but know how to be serious.

13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to
be
serious.

14. React so cutely when you hit him and it
actually hurts.

15. Be patient when you take forever to get
ready.


16. Smile a lot.

17. Plans a romantic date full of cheesy things
he
wouldn't normally like to do, just because he
knows it means a lot to you.

18. Appreciate you.

19. Help others out.

20. Always gives you a peck on the cheek when
you depart from each others company, even
when
his friends are watching.

21. Always have the urge to see you.

22. Sing, even if he can't.

23. Have a creative sense of humor.

24. Stare at you.

25. Call for no reason.

26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs -
just because he loves u that much to quit it

what's L - O - V - E ?

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart
racing
and is
your voice caught within your chest??

-It isn't love, it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of her.

-It isn't love, it's LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show her off??

-It isn't love, it's LUCK.

Do you want her because you know she's
there??

-It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.

Are you with her because it's what everyone
wants??

-It isn't love, it'S LOYALTY.

Are you with her because she kissed you, or
held
your hand?

-It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for her confessions of love,
because
you don't want to hurt her?

-It isn't love, it's PITY.

Do you belong to her because the sight of her
makes your heart skip a beat??

-It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon her faults because you care
about
her?

-It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell her every day she is the only one
you
think of?

-It isn't love, it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give up all of your favorite
things
for her sake?

-It isn't love, it's CHARITY.



Does your heart ache and breaks when she's
sad?

-Then it's LOVE.

Do you cry for her pain, even when she's
strong?

-Then it's LOVE.

Do her eyes see your true heart, and touch
your
soul so deeply it hurts?

-Then it's LOVE.

Do you stay because a blinding,
incomprehensible mix of pain and relation
pulls
you close and holds you to her?

-Then it's LOVE.

Do you accept her faults because it's a part of
who she is?

-Then it's LOVE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with her
faithfully without regret??

-Then it's LOVE.

Would you give her your heart, your life, your
death??

-Then it's LOVE.



Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why
do
we love?

Why is it all we search for in life? This pain,
this
agony?

Why is it all we long for? This torture, this
powerful
death of self?

Why?

The answer is so simple cause it's...LOVE.



It is such an addictive thing that even people
who
are not having it

wish to experience it and share it with others
as
well.

birthday months

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted.
Ambitious and serious.
Loves to teach and be taught.
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses.
Likes to criticize.
Hardworking and productive.
Smart, neat and organized.
Sensitive and has deep thoughts.
Knows how to make others happy.
Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Rather reserved.
Highly attentive.
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds.
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love.
Loves children.
Loyal.
Has great social abilities yet easily jealous.
Very Stubborn and money cautious.
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FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts.
Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent and clever.
Changing personality.
Attractive.
Sexy.
Temperamental.
Quiet, shy and humble.
Honest and loyal.
Determined to reach goals.
Loves freedom.
Rebellious when restricted.
Loves aggressiveness.
Too sensitive and easily hurt.
Gets angry really easily but choose not show it.
Dislike unnecessary things.
Loves making friends but rarely shows it.
Daring and stubborn.
Ambitious.
Realizing dreams and hopes.
Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure.
Romantic on the inside not outside.
Superstitious and ludicrous.
Spendthrift.
Tries to learn to show emotions.
_____________________________________

MARCH:
Attractive personality.
Sexy.
Affectionate.
Shy and reserved.
Secretive.
Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic.
Loves peace and serenity.
Sensitive to others.
Loves to serve others.
Easily angered.
Trustworthy.
Appreciative and returns kindness.
Observant and assesses others.
Revengeful.
Loves to dream and fantasize.
Loves traveling.
Loves attention.
Hasty decisions in choosing partners.
Loves home decors.
Musically talented.
Loves special things.
Moody.
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APRIL:
Active and dynamic.
Decisive and haste but tends to regret.
Attractive and affectionate to oneself.
Strong mentality.
Loves attention.
Diplomatic.
Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.
Brave and fearless.
Adventurous.
Loving and caring.
Suave and generous.
Emotional.
Aggressive.
Hasty.
Good memory.
Motivates oneself and others.
Sickness usually of the head and chest.
Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
_____________________________________

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted.
Strong-willed and highly motivated.
Sharp thoughts.
Easily angered.
Attracts others and loves attention.
Deep feelings.
Beautiful physically and mentally.
Firm Standpoint.
Needs no motivation.
Easily consoled.
Systematic (left brain).
Loves to dream.
Strong clairvoyance.
Understanding.
Sickness usually in the ear and neck.
Good imagination.
Good physical.
Weak breathing.
Loves literature and the arts.
Loves traveling.
Dislike being at home.
Restless.
Not having many children.
Hardworking.
High spirited.
Spendthrift.
_____________________________________

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision.
Easily influenced by kindness.
Polite and soft-spoken.
Having lots of ideas.
Sensitive.
Active mind.
Hesitating, tends to delay.
Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental.
Funny and
humorous.
Loves to joke.
Good debating skills.
Talkative.
Daydreamer.
Friendly.
Knows how to make friends.
Abiding.
Able to show character.
Easily hurt.
Prone to getting colds.
Loves to dress up.
Easily bored.
Fussy.
Seldom shows emotions.
Takes time to recover when hurt.
Brand conscious.
Executive.
Stubborn.
_____________________________________
_
_________
JULY:
Fun to be with.
Secretive.
Difficult to fathom and to be understood.
Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself.
Has reputation.
Easily consoled.
Honest.
Concerned about people's feelings.
Tactful.
Friendly.
Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Moody and easily hurt.
Witty and sparkly.
Not revengeful.
Forgiving but never forgets.
Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally.
Sensitive and forms impressions carefully.
Caring and loving.
Treats others equally.
Strong sense of sympathy.
Wary and sharp.
Judges people through observations.
Hardworking.
No difficulties in studying.
Loves to be alone.
Always broods about the past and the old friends.
Likes to be quiet.
Homely person.
Waits for friends.
Never looks for friends.
Not aggressive unless provoked.
Prone to having stomach and dieting problems.
Loves to be loved.
Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
_____________________________________

AUGUST:
Loves to joke.
Attractive.
Suave and caring.
Brave and fearless.
Firm and has leadership qualities.
Knows how to console others.
Too generous and egoistic.
Takes high pride of oneself.
Thirsty for praises.
Extraordinary spirit.
Easily angered.
Angry when provoked.
Easily jealous.
Observant.
Careful and cautious.
Thinks quickly.
Independent thoughts.
Loves to lead and to be led.
Loves to dream.
Talented in the arts, music and defense.
Sensitive but not petty.
Poor resistance against illnesses.
Learns to relax.
Hasty and trusty.
Romantic.
Loving and caring.
Loves to make friends .
_____________________________________

SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising.
Careful, cautious and organized.
Likes to point out people's mistakes.
Likes to criticize.
Stubborn.
Quiet but able to talk well.
Calm and cool.
Kind and sympathetic.
Concerned and detailed.
Loyal but not always honest.
Does work well.
Very confident.
Sensitive.
Thinking generous.
Good memory.
Clever and knowledgeable.
Loves to look for information.
Must control oneself when criticizing.
Able to motivate oneself.
Understanding.
Fun to be around.
Secretive.
Loves sports, leisure and traveling.
Hardly shows emotions.
Tends to bottle up feelings.
Very choosy, especially in relationships.
Systematic.
_____________________________________

OCTOBER:
Loves to chat.
Loves those who loves them.
Loves to takes things at the center.
Inner and physical beauty.
Lies but doesn't pretend.
Gets angry often.
Treats friends importantly.
Always making friends.
Easily hurt but recovers easily.
Daydreamer.
Opinionated.
Does not care of what others think.
Emotional.
Decisive.
Strong clairvoyance.
Loves to travel, the arts and literature.
Touchy and easily jealous.
Concerned.
Loves outdoors.
Just and fair.
Spendthrift.
Easily influenced.
Easily loses confidence.
Loves children.
_____________________________________

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas.
Difficult to fathom.
Thinks forward.
Unique and brilliant.
Extraordinary ideas.
Sharp thinking.
Fine and strong clairvoyance.
Can become good doctors.
Dynamic in personality.
Secretive.
Inquisitive.
Knows how to dig secrets.
Always thinking.
Less talkative but amiable.
Brave and generous.
Patient.
Stubborn and hard-hearted.
If there is a will, there is a way.
Determined.
Never give up.
Hardly becomes angry unless provoked.
Loves to be alone.
Thinks differently from others.
Sharp-minded.
Motivates oneself.
Does not appreciates praises.
High-spirited.
Well-built and tough.
Deep love and emotions.
Romantic.
Uncertain in relationships.
Homely.
Hardworking.
High abilities.
Trustworthy.
Honest and keeps secrets.
Not able to control emotions.
Unpredictable.
_____________________________________
_
_________
DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous.
Sexy.
Patriotic.
Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty.
Ambitious.
Influential in organizations.
Fun to be with.
Loves to socialize.
Loves praises.
Loves attention.
Loves to be loved.
Honest and trustworthy.
Not pretending.
Short tempered.
Changing personality.
Not egoistic.
Take high pride in oneself.
Hates restrictions.
Loves to joke.
Good sense of humor.
Logical.

*y a w n

kinda in sch now.doin nothing actually.*yawn.hmm.gotta do my cadp.sianx.

finished with my model le.den gotta do e drawings again.cos i changed e layout of e wood pieces.sigh.=(

hmm.this weekend my parents wont be home.hmm.which means......lolx.

cant wait for sat.heex.goin to pick him up.=))))

ok la.logging off le.ciaox!

girl all the bad guys want by bowling for soup

8 o'clock, Monday night and I'm waitin'
To finally talk to a girl a little cooler than me.
Her name is Lola, she's a rocker with a nose ring,
She wears a two way, but I'm not quite sure what that means.

And when she walks,
All the wind blows and the angels sing.
She doesn't notice me!

Cause she is watchin' wrestling
Creamin' over tough guys
Listenin' to rap metal
Turntables in her eyes

It's like a bad movie
She is lookin' through me
If you were me, then you'd be
Screamin' "Someone shoot me!"
As I fail miserably,
Tryin' to get the girl all the bad guys want.
She's the girl all the bad guys want!

She likes the godsmack and I like agent orange
Her cd changer's full of singers that are mad at their dad
She says she'd like to score some reefer and a forty
She'll never know that I'm the best that she'll never have

And when she walks,
All the wind blows and the angels sing.
She'll never notice me!

Cause she is watchin' wrestling
Creamin' over tough guys
Listenin' to rap metal
Turntables in her eyes

She likes 'em with a moustache
Racetrack season pass
Drivin' in a Trans-Am
Does a mullet make a man?

It's like a bad movie
She is lookin' through me
If you were me, then you'd be
Screamin' "Someone shoot me!"
As I fail miserably,
Tryin' to get the girl all the bad guys want.
She's the girl all the bad guys want!
She's the girl all the bad guys want!
She's the girl all the bad guys want!

There she goes again
With fishnets on, and dreadlocks in her hair
She broke my heart, I wanna be sedated
All I wanted was to see her naked!

Now I am watchin' wrestling
Tryin' to be a tough guy
Listenin' to rap metal
Turntables in my eyes
I can't grow a moustache
And I ain't got no season pass
All I got's a moped...moped....moped.....

It's like a bad movie
She is lookin' through me
If you were me, then you'd be
Screamin' "Someone shoot me!"
As I fail miserably,
Tryin' to get the girl all the bad guys want.

'Cause she's the girl all the bad guys want!
'Cause she's the girl all the bad guys want!
'Cause she's the girl all the bad guys want!
'Cause she's the girl all the bad guys want!
(There she goes again)
'Cause she's the girl all the bad guys want!
'Cause she's the girl all the bad guys want!
(There she goes again)
'Cause she's the girl all the bad guys want!
'Cause she's the girl all the bad guys want!

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i'm like so stucked on this song.....

LOVE ME by collin raye

I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me. He said,
"Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
Of her, I found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

awww....

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the
girl next to me. She
was my so called "best friend". I stared at her
long, silky hair, and wished she was mine.
But
she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
After class, she walked up to me and asked
me
for the notes she had missed the day before
and
handed them to her. She said "thanks" and
gave
me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I
want her to know that I don't want to be just
friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I
don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her.
She was in tears, mumbling on and on about
how
her love had broke her heart. She asked me
to
come over because she didn't want to be
alone,
so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I
stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was
mine.
After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie,
and
three bags of chips, she decided to go to
sleep.
She
looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a
kiss
on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to
know that I don't want to be just friends, I
love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know
why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my
locker. "My
date is sick" she said; he's not going to go
well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we
made a promise that if neither of us had
dates,
we would go together just as "best friends".
So
we did. Prom night, after everything was over,
I
was standing at her front door step! I stared
at
her as she smiled at me and stared at me
with
her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but
she
isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then
she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and
gave
me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I
want her to know that I don't want to be just
friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and
I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month.
Before
I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched
as her perfect body floated like an angel up
on
stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be
mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I
knew it. Before everyone
went home, she came to me in her smock
and
hat,
and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted
her
head from my shoulder and said, "you're my
best
friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the
cheek.
I want to tell her, I want her to know that I
don't want to be just friends, I love her but
I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl
is getting married now. I watched her say "I
do"
and drive off to her new life, married to
another man. I wanted her to be mine, but
she
didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But
before she drove away, she came to me and
said "you came!". She said "thanks" and
kissed
me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her
to know that I don't want to be just friends, I
love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know
why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a
girl who used to be my "best friend". At the
service, they read a diary entry she had wrote
in her high school years. This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he
doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I
want to tell him, I want him to know that I
don't want to be just friends, I love him but
I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish
he would tell me he loved me!
I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I
cried.

M_I_A

gona mia for a while.heex.ciao bloggie.

anything for you, my dear

He met her at a party. She was so
outstanding,
many guys chasing after her, while he was so
normal, nobody paid attention to him.

At the end of the party, he invited her to have
coffee with him, she was surprised but due to
being polite, she promised.
They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too
nervous
to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she
thought to herself, "Please, let me go home.."

Suddenly he asked the waiter, "Would you
please
give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my
coffee."

Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face
turned red but still, he put the salt in his
coffee and drank it.

She asked him curiously, "Why you have this
hobby?"

He replied, "When I was a little boy, I lived
near
the sea, I liked playing in the sea, I could feel
the taste of the sea , just like the taste of the
salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty
coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of
my hometown, I miss my hometown so
much, I miss my
parents who are still living there."

While saying that tears filled his eyes. She
was
deeply touched. That's his true feeling, from
the
bottom of his heart. A man who can tell out
his
homesickness, he must be a man who loves
home,
cares about home, has responsibility of
home..
Then she also started to speak, spoke about
her
faraway hometown, her childhood, her family.

That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful
beginning of their story. They continued to
date.
She found that actually he was a man who
meets all
her demands; he had tolerance, was kind
hearted,
warm, careful. He was such a good person
but she
almost missed him! Thanks to his salty
coffee!

Then the story was just like every beautiful
love
story, the princess married to the prince, then
they were living the happy life... And, every
time
she made coffee for him, she put some salt
in the
coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked it.

After 40 years, he passed away, left her a
letter
which said, "My dearest, please forgive me,
forgive my whole life's lie. This was the only
lie
I said to you---the salty coffee.

Remember the first time we dated? I was so
nervous
at that time, actually I wanted some sugar,
but I
said salt. It was hard for me to change so I
just
went ahead. I never thought that could be the
start of our communication!

I tried to tell you the truth many times in my
life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have
promised not to lie to you for anything.. Now
I'm
dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the
truth, I don't like the salty coffee, what a
strange bad taste.. But I have had the salty
coffee for my whole life!

Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for
anything
I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest
happiness for my whole life. If I can live for
the
second time, still want to know you and have
you
for my whole life, even though I have to drink
the
salty coffee again."

Her tears made the letter totally wet.
Someday, someone asked her, "What's the
taste of
salty coffee?"

She replied, "It's sweet."

Pass this 2 everyone coz love is not 2 forget
but 2 forgive, not 2 see but understand, not 2
hear
but 2 listen, not 2 let go but HOLD ON !!!!

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss
and ends with a tear.



True love hears what is not spoken &
understands what is not explained, for love
doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but
in the heart...

take TIME to REALISE

There was once this guy who is very much in love
with his girl.

This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of paper
cranes as a gift to
his girl.

Although, at that time he was just a small fry in his
company, his
future doesn't seem too bright, they were very
happy together.

Until one day, his girl told him she was going to
Paris and will
never come back.

She also told him that she cannot visualise any
future for the both
of them, so they went their own ways there and
then...

Heartbroken, the guy agreed. But when he
regained his confidence, he
worked hard day and night, slogging his body and
mind just to make
something out of himself.

Finally with all the hard work and the help of
friends, this guy had
set up his own company .

You never fail until you stop trying.

One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw
an elderly couple
sharing an umbrella in the rain walking to some
destination. Even
with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn't
take him long to
realize they were his girl's parents. With a heart in
getting back at them,

he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them
to spot him in his
luxury sedan.

He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same
any more; he had his
own company, car, condo, etc. He made it! What
he saw next confused him,
the couple was walking towards a cemetery, and
so he got out of his car
and followed...and he saw his girl, a photograph of
her smiling sweetly
as ever at him from her tombstone and he saw his
paper cranes right
beside her...

Her parents saw him. He asked them why this had
happened. They
explained, she did not leave for France at all. She
was ill with cancer.

She had believed that he will make it someday,
but she did not want
to be his obstacle... therefore she had chosen to
leave him. Just because
someone doesn't love you the way you want them
to, doesn't mean they
don't love you with all they have.

She had wanted her parents to put his paper
cranes beside her,
because, if the day comes when fate brings him to
her again...he can take
some of
those back with him...

Once you have loved, you will always love. For
what's in your mind
may escape but what's in your heart will remain
forever.

The guy just wept...The worst way to miss
someone is to be sitting
right beside her knowing you can't have her, see
her or be with her ever
again.........hope you understand.

Find time to realize that there is one person who
means so much to
you, for you might wake up one morning losing
that person who you thought
meant nothing to you.

mee* n myy SHORT hair!

omg!!my hair was SOOOOO SHORT!!


i miss my short hair!!=(

this is WHY?

"Why are you crying?" he asked his mom.
"Because I'm a woman," she told him.
"I don't understand," he said. His mom just
hugged him and said, "And
you
never will"

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does
mother seem to cry for
no
reason?"
"All women cry for no reason" was all his dad
could say...

The little boy grew up and became a man, still
wondering why women
cry...

Finally he put in a call to GOD; when GOD got on
the phone the man
said,
"GOD, why do women cry so easily?"

GOD said...

When I made women she had to be special. I
made her shoulders strong
enough
to carry the weight of the world; yet, gentle enough
to give comfort...

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth
and the rejection
that
many times comes from her children...

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep
going when everyone else
gives
up and take care of her family through sickness
and fatigue without
complaining...

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under
any and all
circumstances, even when her child has hurt her
very badly...

This same sensitivity helps her to make a child's
boo-boo feel better
and
shares in their teenagers anxieties and fears...

I gave her strength to carry her husband through
his faults and
fashioned
her from his rib to protect his heart...

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband
never hurts his wife, but
sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to
stand beside him
unfalteringly...

I gave her a tear to shed, It's hers exclusively to
use whenever it is
needed. It's her only weakness... It's a tear for
mankind.

*y a w n .

i'm bored.bored.bored.sigh.

SMILE.
if you're not wearing any underwear.

myy* +h a p p y e n d i n g.

My Happy Ending-Arvil

So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Caught up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought of you
And I thought we could be

[chorus]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All that they talk about
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought of you
And I thought we could be

[chorus]

It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching at the phone
And making me feel we were done

[chorus X2]

oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

k b o x * * day.

feelin kinda better le.*weak smile.

hmm.had LC today.got back our test papers.got a 79/100.hmm.but tt's only like 30% of e total lorx.sigh.so still gotta work harder!!hmm.did like a mini interview thingy.ya.had interview with willium hung!gosh!laoda was to be willium hung.n terrence his manager.so nonsense lorx.was practically laughing my head off most of e time.hmm.someting happened between laoda n xiaohong.duno wat.but it seems serious.sigh.gave him a call.see if he wanted to join me*huirong*sherrie for kbox.but guess he wasnt interested.hmm.den headed down to fc one for lunch with huirong*sherrie*laoda*terrence*jireh.

saw ERWINA.e min i stepped into sch.her class was sitting by e steps.drawing.i duno wat.but was funny.den on my way to e studio.i saw UMAR!!!.oh my gosh!!haven seen him in ages!!gave him a big hug!heex.was great to see him!!n i saw MIRA at fc one!!*WIDE SMILE.great to see old friends again.heex!

hmm.den e three of us headed down to clementi le.yup.sang our lungs out!!sang so many� songs!e three of us are so gona have sore throats.soon.some songs we were like shouting lorx!!lolx.hmm.den huirong showed me a mtv which e window just closed by itself!damn creepy lorx!!*shivers.i screamed.n tt scream made sherie scream!heex.was fun!just e three of us.den they gave us 3 mics.so we all had e chance of singing!=).sang alot of my fav songs.=)hmm.took a few pics.have already uploaded them.hmm.

met him for dinner afer tt.ya.had dinner at clementi.was =).hmm.he was so proud of himself abt 2 msges.so cute.=).was happy to hear tt he's so open now.=).took a bus to holland v.den had to walk home.ya lorx.cos e 105 was so packed.no choice but to take e 106.yup.

sigh.cant write le.cant think of anything.sigh.=(.

`guess i still cant be that perfect.

i HAVE no i d e a on HOW to do myy* +p r i m e r t h r e e.

one project is done.now i have another to do.sigh.projects.projects.projects.sigh.my life is just full of projects.*argh.

schooled today.was so lazy to get outta bed.had no choice but to get up.cos e lects will be briefing us abt primer three today.sigh.so dragged myself out.sigh.had theory of design lect first thing in e morning.sigh.boring.lehning went through e notes he had given us for e past few weeks.*sigh.hmm.den we had e grp presentations.ya.break at abt 12.went for lunch.wanted to have lunch at fc2.but was too crowded!so had to tao bao back to studio.so ke lian right?hmm.had large fries for lunch.cos no cash.so no choice.=(.was eating in e studio.heex.

after lunch played cards with terrence*xiaohong*laoda.so nonsense lorx.they were like deciding wat to do to one another if they won or lost.laughed n laughed.sherrie nearly couldnt take it.lolx.hmm.learned a few words from them.sigh.shouldnt have asked.*diaox.all e dirty words.*shakes head.hmm.oh ya.found out something abt sherrie le.not exactly sherrie la.but tt triple e guy.hmm.he's such a b*st*rd!sorry k.dun mean to be crude or wat.but he really deserves tt title lorx.for treatinf sherrie tt way.sigh.feel sad for sherrie.

did some drawings for primer t h r e e.sigh.cant draw.luit rejected our drawings.sigh.so gotta do at home.den i've tried le.no mood.cant draw.sigh.so relax first lorx.heex.

just painted my nails.heex.did some lil patterns.so they now have lil flowers on them!*yeah.heex.

ok la.gotta go keep e clothings le.

`nights.

when G I R L S .....

When girls are quiet, Millions of
things are running in their mind.

When girls are not arguing, They are
thinking deeply.

When girls look 'staringly' at you, They
are wondering how long you will be around.

When girls answer "i'm fine" after a
few seconds, They are not at all fine.

When girls stare at you, They are
wondering why are you lying.

When girls lay on your chest, They are
wishing for you to be theirs forever.

When girls call you everyday, They are
seeking for your attention.

When girls want to see you everyday,
They want to be loved and pampered by you.

When girls sms u everyday, They miss you
and want you to reply at least once.

When girls say I LOVE YOU, They mean
it.

When girls say that they can't live
without you, They have made up their mind
that you are their future.

Finally..
When girls say "i miss you", No one
in this world can miss you more than them..

C O N C E R T ?

hmm.ayu asked if i wana go watch e Jay Chou concert.

hmm.he's suggesting e $148 ones.*diaox.

no cash.how to go?sigh.

feel like going.cos its been sometime since i've been to a concert le.n i'm like so stucked on jay's new songs.ya lorx.sigh.feeling so stuck in between now.sigh.help me decide?

me * SO m o o d y :(

sigh.duno why nowadays so moody.sigh.keep making myself so upset over lil things.first it was a card + photo.den it was a msg from some girl.den it was e photos in e comp.den yest night's conversation.sigh.=(.today's phone conversation.sigh.guess nothing ever seems to be goin the right direction.huh?=(

hmm.hols are over!headed for sch at ard 820plus.was late!was supposed to meet shiqi*twinkle*hendry*sherrie to do e project.but totally forgot abt it.so was taking my own sweet time till shiqi called.panicked.so rushed myself to sch!hmm.printed over handouts.e advertisements.our journals.n everything lorx.spent quite a sum on e photocopying.=(.sigh.broke le.yet again!*argh.had our crit session today at idea center.we were e 3rd grp to present.so it was alright i guess.e presentation was over really fast.but e lects had so much to say after our powerpoint!*argh.sch ended a lil earlier than expected.so gave bunk a call.told her i had ended sch le.asked her to come over to dover to meet me.yup.

slacked ard e clubhse with sherrie*huirong.saw victor*jiahui*darrenlim//tan there.sherrie*me left at abt 520pm.headed to e mrt.waited for them.den when we were in e toilet.stupid bunk had to give me a call!lolx.she came looking for me in e toilet.hmm.den bunk*mich*me headed down to clementi to get something for xuezhen.couldnt get a cake.cos she cant take eggs!so we decided to get her mooncakes!!lolx.so nonsense right?so we celebrated her b'day with mooncakes!!lolx.headed over to her place.saw laikuan*xiao xuan*their classmates there.sang a b'day song for her.alone.cos bunk*mich backed out.so ya.she ate her strawberry mooncake.den bunk*me played with candles!!lolx.dirtied xuezhen's table.heex.i was like peeling e colouring of e candle.n bunk was just trying to get herself burnt.lolx.hmm.gossiped for a lil while.told her wat happened.den we headed home le.took e last feeder bus out.had to rush.cos we didnt wana walk.was too darn creepy!eeks!e bus driver was creepy enough.disturbed bunk on e ride.*winks.

but sigh.have no one to share all this with.so i'm turning to you.my bloggie~

*muacks!

`nights

[ * ` m y i d e a l p a r t n e r ` * ]

Your ideal partner. Please provide your most
truthful answers.

[1] How well must he/she know u?
hmm.alright ba.at least know me well enough to predict my moods ba.

[2] Does looks count?
no.but if he's cute.its a plus.*winks.

[3] Must he/she have an X-Factor
nah.

[4] Drive a car/bike?
hmm.dun mind either.

[5] Go clubbing often?
sigh.

[6] Feel secure with him/her?
er.ya.

[7] Good at cracking jokes?
=).

[8] Should he/she be always spending all
his/her time with u?
hmm.mayb not all.since he has a life of his own.

[9] Conservative towards you?
meaning?

[10] A quick thinker?
dun wan.like tt i'll keep getting bullied.

[11] Should he/she have a good sense of
dressing?
hmm.should have la.

[12] Preferbably what kind of hairstyle?
Including colour
short.spiky.hmm.as for colour.not too beng lorx.

[13] Should he/she be the one making
decisions
all the time?
heex.i cant decide most of e time.so it would be better wouldnt it?

[14] Romantic?
hopefully.

[15] Shy?
lolx.sometimes when guys are shy.they can be really cute!*smiles.

[16] Hot-Tempered?
hmm.preferably not.cos he's gotta tolerate mine.

[17] Loud or Quiet?
depends on e situation/occasion.

[18] Generous or Stingy?
depends on his finacial situation.

[19] Kind or Heartless?
kind lorx.

[20] Cute or Sweet?
can i have e best of 2 worlds??

[21] Vain or Casual?
lolx.vainity could be a gd thing at times.but not always la.

[22] Punk or Hipster?
definately not punk!

[23] Smart or Stupid?
hmm.average ba.

[24] *For guys* Should she wear heavy make
up most of the time?
- nil -.

[25] *For girls* Must he dress up all the time?
nah.

[26] Should he/she pamper u?
but of cos.girls are borned to be pampered.heex.

[27] Should he/she be open minded when
speaking to u?
hmm.mayb ba.

[28] Should he/she be well-educated?
dun really need to be.just as long he's able to carry himself well its alright.=)

[29] Good Looking+Dumb OR Ugly+Intelligent
huh?weird combi?gd looking n dumb = himbo. ugly n intelligent = nerd.

[30] Possessive+faithful OR
Freedom+unfaithful
hmm.possessive n faithful.

[31] Childish+Caring OR Mature+Ignorant
hmm.cant decide.

[32] Should you be able to see a future ahead
for u 2?
this is a secret.

[33] Do u think this kind of girl/guy exists?
hmm.mayb.*smiles.

[34] If yes, have u met him/her?
hopefully he is.

[35] If no, do u think u will be able to meet
him/her?
...

_ s h o u l d i CHANGE layout?

should i change my layout?sigh.

have 3 designs in mind.

cant decide.=(

l a z y me *

haven been blogging as often le.guess i'm back to tt lazy lil me.heex.

well.its e hols le.like finally.but it doesnt like one.sigh.ok.lets track back n see wat i've done.

monday
went to newton.met terrence*sherrie at 9.cos we had to do e wall mural thingy.laoda*xiaohong came later.cos they were in sch.handing in their projects.hmm.finished most of e painting.n we did some drawings on xiaohong.lolx.he's so ke lian.kana bullied by terrence*junteh*me.opps!he was aslp.den we started drawing.heex.took several pics.have uploaded them.their under e wall mural link.yup.we left at abt 230pm.hmm.went over to meet him.took a bus down to his place.slacked ard for quite some time.den took a bus down to holland v.i had to print somethings.den he had dinner there.he walked me home.den he headed to meet his fren for a karaok session.

today
went back to newton again.9 again.took e train.went to some shop.n got some things to munch.was super hungry.came outta e shop.n saw xiaohong*junteh*laoda*terrence.so walked to e place together.hmm.n we finally finished e thingy today.dun have to go back le.we stayed there till like 5plus.cos had to do e final touch ups.oh.n today.i totally lost it.sigh.went crazy.got frustrated.den throw temper at e guys lorx.sigh.teared abit.but was alright after i cooled down.e guys were shocked.lolx.hmm.den had an arguement with him.sigh.e arguement shouldnt even have happened lorx.sigh.guess i was expecting too much ba.sigh.duno la.was frustrated.n didnt wana think abt so much.so i just sat there listening to jeff chang's qing ges(kindly sponsored by sherrie).fell aslp on e chair.den after tt when xiaonhong woke up.i went to lie on e piano chair.n fell aslp there.heex.took my jacket out to hug.hmm.woke up at abt 4plus.terrence*xiaohong woke me up.cos he was outside.was alil blur blur.den walked out.hmm.den he sat there till like 5plus.until we left lorx.he rode ding guo's bike down.went over to holland v.again.cos had to collect e stuffs.so decided to go there lorx.but before tt.we went house-seeing!was so cool lorx.e houses we saw were amazing!fell totally in love with some of them.wished i could afford a house ike tt.hmm.*wonders off to dreamland......okok.but to reality.went to holland v.ride there was fun.=).hmm.like whee!heex.been quite some time since i've been rode ard.is tt sentence even grammatically right?*shrugs.oh well.who cares?hmm.got home.slacked.bathed.slacked again.used comp.iron clothings.n here i am online again.n i gotta hit e sack soon.or i wont be able to get up.

`nights bloggie

*muacks!

if you love someone, let them go. If
they return to you, it was meant to be. If
they don't, their love was never yours to
begin with...

a great love is when you shed tears
and still cares for her& still longs for
her, she begins to love another and yet
you still smile and say " I'm happy for
you " (:

the worst thing in the world is
seeing the one you love with the one
they love.
you always leave the ones who leaves
you and leaves the one who loves you.

loving is not how you forget but how
you forgive, not how you listen but how
you understand, not what you see but
how you feel and not how you let go but
how you hold on.

a guy and a girl can be just friends ,
but.. at one point or another , one of
them will fall for the other , maybe
temporary , maybe at wrong time ,
maybe too late , maybe ..
Just maybe... forever...

dun really have much time.so shall make it a short n sweet one.

met up with sm*sy today.had dinner together at ps.had pizza.*burp.still full.we ordered too much.lolx.hmm.suprised sy.heex.

here's to sm.all e best for ur race tmr.oh.later i mean.will try to go see k.(:

oh ya.sy mentioned something today.sigh.duno la.dun really rem wat happened.sigh.but why do i have to apologise?*wonders.was it my fault?sigh.

there finally uploaded e pic of e dreamcatcher pinkie made for me! (:

and then we have sherrie*me

*argh.guess i'm just to lazy to blog le.heex.

shall go do my project now.

`nighty.


sogonamissyouwhenyoureinthere.sigh.=(.

schooled today.yup.nearly got outta bed late today!if it wasnt for a call.heex.rushed myself to sch.sigh.couldnt even make my lunch.sigh.=(

did e primer 2.again.so sick of it now!*argh.finished sewing e metal thingy today.fixed e angle n stuff le.jsut afraid tt e angle would be wrong again.sigh.hmm.den did e advertisement.powerpoint.n all e nitty gritty stuff.did quite alot today.*yeah.gotta go sch early tmr.den hopefully we'll end early.den probably can meet sm*sy*tiff tmr.hmm.meeting them in studio at 9am!hmm.

finally got my dreamcatcher le!!*yeah!so pretty!=)))))).hmm.shall take a photo n upload it soon ba.

loggin off le.ciao bloggie~

`nights!

i'm so tired!

yesterday
had sch as usual.had e language lesson.was at t21.didnt know how to get there.so met up with chun meng first.hmm.so both of us headed down together.on e way there gave sherrie a call.she told me she was there le.ya.couldnt find her when we got there.heex.hmm.finally we found her.den we took e life up.saw twinkle's class leaving e place.hmm.chatted for a while.den headed for class le.had some difficulty looking for e room.managed to find e place.went in n saw terrence*jireh.they were in class ever since 9.kiasu!hmm.was doin e recording tt day.hmm.i started everything.heex.so went i was doin my recording.only like 6 audience.so not so much pressure.sat there listening.yup.class ended at like 1140am.den huirong*sherrie*laoda*terrence*jireh*xiaohong*me headed to fc6 for lunch.told him tt tt area every crowded.n he said of cos la.down there is cbd area lehx.lolx.

den went to newton le.started painting at like 130pm.hmm.decided on e colour of e distorted keyboard.mixed a few colours.was kinda fun n slack too.didnt paint much.cos no space for me to paint.either too high or someone else paint le.oh ya.i like totally destroyed laoda's henderson pe t-shirt!opps!keep kana scolding from him.blueh.took a few pics of them painting.n e walls.ya.so kuku lorx.den stupid junteh kept saying tt i very zhi lian.hmm.we were playing music ma.den he like kept singing lorx!he's singing is worse than mine.he's like totally mono tone.can u imagine?someone worse than me?i'm bad eonough le.heex.

painted till like 5.den i had to rush down to tbp to meet delia*clar*mich*their frenwas like super late lorx.heex.they waited for me for like 2 hrs.eek!den went back to stc.while crossing e over head bridge gave xuezhen a call.heex.headed to e auditorium.was kinda disappointed tt e concert was held there.but nvm ba.was great to be back too!*smiles.hmm.gave xuezhen a great big hug when i saw her.miss her to bits n pieces!been so long!took a pic with her before e concert.guess wat?e concert theme was Close To You.been so stucked on tt song.heex.meaningful.*winks.was a lil disappointed with e concert la.cos e amplifiers werent helping.e guitars were not properly plugged in.was well rehearsed.but.nvm ba.still enjoyed myself.some of e items totally rawked!den mr patrick ng performed an item for his gf lorx.omg!he's voice isnt tt bad!e song was just right lorx.*heart melts.like so awwww!*winks.some of e songs reminded me of stuff.but e songs they chose were great!

headed backstage after tt.hugs almost everyone.teared slightly.when i saw e sec4s.esp elis.hmm.den went to e hardcourt.took pics with lotsa people.will upload them when i have e time ba.had jelly!was made by mrs fung.been so long since i've had her jelly.was yummy!*smiles.love e jelly she makes!n e cakes!=)))).always get them on oct 1st.heex.chatted with mrs fung*mrs gomez for a while.den sat at e hard court with jo*xuezhen*delia*bunkie*sharon ng.mich*clar went off first.had a talk with my dearestmaggielee.heex.ya.oh ya!!saw tiff's dearestmryeo at e concert.he has white hair le!!!so stress ah.lolx.hmm.

xuezhen's fren han sen gave jo*delia*me a lift home.ya.so nonesense lorx.e ride home.was fun!kept crapping n crapping!den they said i've gone cazy ever since i've stepped into poly.lolx.i totally agree!heex.

walked home from e mrt station.gave him a call.but he couldnt talk for long.so was like alone walking home.got home.gave him a call again.n yet again he couldnt talk for long.sigh.guess its alright ba.ya.had my bathe.den watched a lil tv.n had to slp early.cos i had to wakey early.ya.disturbed pam before i slept.heex.was great!

today
woke up at like 730am.cos e stupid alarm just kept ringing.n ringing.got irritated.so i just decided to wake up.bathed.n waited for everyone else to get up.

went to uncle's place.had like breakfast cum lunch there.den headed down to paipai le.ya.e place was like so crowded lorx.den e smoke from e incense was like so much!was like hurting my eyes.argh!

hmm.guess yesterday was more exciting than today ba.sigh.today was kinda sad day for me.sigh.shall not mention it le.=(.

nights!

my skin is so dry!*argh.its in bad condition.sigh.gotta get enough slp.n h2o le.`sadded.so chou.=(

hmm.had sch today.did microstation early in e morning at 8am!!*argh.wat a way to start e day huh?hmm.hate microstation.*argh.but it seems like i'm doin ok with it.if i get e lect or e instructions is talking abt.hmm.did todays work rather fast.cos was rather simple.ya.only needed to do e pentable den print lorx.yup.hmm.print le den give doshi check.yupyup.hmm.den ended e calss at like 10plus lorx.hmm.cos was waiting for huirong*sherrie.

hmm.den went to have a light lunch at fc1.saw terrence*laoda*xiaohong*jireh*junteh abt to finish their lunch.hmm.sat with them.huirong*sherrie*me had sandwiches for lunch.hmm.den headed back together with e guys to e studio.cos luit giving briefing for primer2 at 11 ma.hmm.after e briefing was our lunch break.but as we already had lunch.we didnt go.went to do our primer2 project.sherrie*me went over to look for twinkle*shiqi.did some of e powerpoint thingy.den scanned e pics.took some pics.hmm.couldnt do much cos e metal piece was with henry.*sigh.hmm.

we concluded that sherrie=motherly*shiqi=fierce mother*twinkle=blur girl*me=needs to looked after.lolx.

was munching biscuits while doin e primer2 thingy.*yummy.had e grape one.n e lemon one.all sponsored by e motherly sherrie.heex.sherrie's so gona kill me if she sees this.heex.hmm.

henry came to sch like 3pm.passed us e metal piece.hmm.we fixed e mirror n velcro to e metal piece.n tried e thingy.see if it works.hmm.panicked when we realised tt e thingy was in e right angle.*stress.but managed to find a solution.

watching anime!heex.gash is so cute!!!!AHHH!!!kiyomaru is so nonesense!!lolx.

ok.back to today.hmm.headed to e examinations office to help pam collect her cert.hmm.finally i went to collect it.heex.den went to meet him at his work place there.den we went to queensway.walked ard for awhile.den we went over to macs.sat down n had ice cream.despite e cold weather.n had fries.n iced milo.heex.wat a spread eh?hmm.sat there till abt 730pm ba.hmm.spent some quality time together ba.heex.enjoy spending time with him.hmm.after tt he sent me home.took 100.den he headed down town to meet his ex colleagues for dinner.ya.guess he's still there.hmm.

anime finish le.gotta wait till pam downloads more le.heex.hmm.will be signing off le.nights!

*muacks!

hmm.in sch now.doin microstation.*yeah!done le.heex.only a few done le.hmm.so which means i'm one of e few who knows how to do.heex.*self praise is no praise.heex.hmm.he's at work le.hmm.hope he'll be fine ba.shall sign off le.before some lect comes walking pass.

`ciao.

nothingbrightensupmydaythanasweetmsg.=).

*argh.guess i was too emotional once again.sigh.

*shakes head.this aint helping at all.sigh.

sorry.would be the only thing i can say now.sigh.

guess i would have to change and accept things like they are now ba.ya.

shall sign off now le.nights!

i know it's been quite sometime i came online and probably blog a long blog.kinda lazy i must say.sorry to those who have been reading my blog and realized that i didn't keep it updated.=(.

today went to school as per normal.

nothing much actually happened.he only responded to me at ard 315pm or so.at that time,i was doing project with twinkle and the rest.chat awhile on the phone.told him that we were ending class early.ya.actually wanted to like meet him for awhile oso can.ya.but guess he was too tired to answer me at that time.so i asked him to stayed home and rest.=(.then he said that i didn't mean what i said cos he knows that i wanted to meet him from my voice.but i really wanted him to rest at home tho inside wanting to meet.ya.

guess what.*surprised look*.received a sms from him saying that he'll meet me at clementi.=).met up and went kfc for dinner.this time no money treat him so in the end,he'll have to pay once again.*guilty* after eating,went over to holland village to get his pda sticker for his hp screen as clementi doesn't sell.took 106 over.had a funny time while waiting for the bus and in the bus itself."boy,you know what i'm reffering to eh..." *winks* managed to get hold of the sticker but he didn't buy as the shop owner say the sticker cover for specific hps will be out in a few days time.=.honest owner.

after that went shopping ard in hv.the time we spend was short but it's felt so sweet.looking at cute stuffs,kitten(look like garfeild) etc.i even mentioned to him that in future,if he can afford,he'll have to pay for my monthly 'manucure'.haha.=).after that,he walked me home from hv.the feeling was so sweet.=).

the sad news came when he said he will be going out with his friends over to clementi kbox.sad not becoz he's going but that means nobody can accompany me chat.guess i'll shalln't be selfish.cos i oso can't pei him out late.sometimes i really detest why i was born like that.sigh.=(.

stayed home waiting for him to sms me knowing i wouldn't get much of it cos he's been over using his sms ler. slack till abt 115am.he called!yeah!=).but guess from all my slacking on bed plus so late ler,i gave him a sian voice.said he will be going for his dinner,as he haven't eaten, then head home.i was to tired to wait up so told him i was hitting the sack soon.=(.

for him:

i know sometimes i'm abit childish giving you so much of my attitude but i really didn't mean it.i'll try to change k.i know alot of things i said i'll try ler but no results but i really try k.you've been very patient with me i know.giving in all the time.duno bah.maybe i used to your pampering ler.ya.i hope maybe tommorrow can meet you again but if cannot,really nvm but sat i will deffinately meet you.*winks*ya. k bah.tired ler.

`nights

argh.dad's arguing with da jie.argh!

hate this.

argh.i'm too lazy to blog anymore....

blueh.

spent the whole of today out.yup.

had dinner over at auntie's place.had stem boat.hmm.cos was celebrating jessica's 12th birthday.yup.her birthday's on mon.hmm.ate quite alot.such a sin.had chocolate cake!*yummy.argh.which means i'll have to work extra hard to get rid of e excess weight.sigh.=(

thought alot today.was in mum's car.staring outta window when it popped into my brain.ya.kinda dn wish to think abt tt person.but just couldnt help it.sigh.=(.if u guys think tt i'm talking abt my ex.den u're wrong.this person isnt connected to me.not directly la.hmm.ya.but tt person just keeps poppin into my head.without a particular reason.sigh.this isnt e first time le.*argh.

it makes me feel sad.jealous at times.sigh.i noe tt it isnt fair if i just turn moody of outta e blue.without giving u a reason.ya.so i just remained normal.ya.msged u like i always do.chatted with ya like i always do.so tt u wont suspect a thing.didnt wana spoil ur day out with them.so didnt tell u.hope u wont blame me.i did told u to come here to read.right?ya.sorry k.for like hiding things from u again.

*argh.hate this feeling.sigh.but guess its without a choice tt i have to feel this way.*sigh.i noe it all happened in e past.but i just cant help but think abt it.ever since u told me.sigh.u've been telling quite a bit le.ya.n its STUCK in me.sigh.i duno why.dun ask me.sigh.duno if i'll be able to like take it as a normal comment or not.but i'll have to try harder.cos i really dun like the feeling.

*argh.i really have to stop thinking abt it.sigh.goin to log off le.ya.make myself stop thinking abt it.

`nights

just finsihed with my report!yeah!*happy.did e drawing n everything le.heex.*happy.so i've lesser work for weekend!*cheers.

hmm.heard tt mandy moore n jonathon foreman song.really like tt song a lot.cos of e movie.if anyone rems.tt song was from e movie "a walk to remember".n e song title is "someday we'll know".kinda brings back memories.sigh.sweet memories are great.but not e sad ones.=(.aiya.gotta stop thinking abt it le.its affecting my mood.and i'm like pms-ing lorx.sigh.so its not good.

woke up late again.argh.den took e wrong bus by accident.double argh!so was late for like abt 15mins.was supposed to meet terrence*sherrie*huirong at 9 to do our project.got there n realised i wasnt e lastest.heex.hmm.brought my fav cookies to sch today!=)))).ate quite alot.shared with them n twinkle too.hmm.love those cookies!*yummy.

did project today.erm.another one la.with sherrie*twinkle*henry*shiqi one.e body furniture one.hmm.came out with lotsa funny ideas.n now we're just down to 2.goota decide which one we wana use le.hmm.e lects were just laughing away.when we told them our ideas.lolx.made us laugh too.

think i've gotta start dieting n exercising le.=(.gotta stop eat all tt junk food.gotta resist!hmm.n my pimples are popping out!gross.hurts alot!ahhh!n i've gotta keep my hands off them.hmm.

been taking lotsa self portraits using other people's phone lately.heex.used like kelvin[laoda]*junda.heex.so now their phones have lotsa pics of me!heex.n they were like complaining n complaining.say tt i zhi lian kuang.am i?hmm.wanted to take more today.using junda's N7200.but he stopped me.he said inside still got alot of my pics.n i still wana take.sadded.sigh.nvm ba.shall play with other people's le.heex.*looks out for next target.

been pms-ing today.sigh.tt isnt a gd sign.sigh.so beware.do not provoke me these few days.i might just flare up on ya.i sound like such a meanie.=(.

hmm.been rather bad to him today.just flared up at him for no apparent reason.sigh.guess he's feeling kinda down.i kinda feel like i'm bullying him.sigh.n after wat he saw on my msn.guess he felt even worse.=(.so sorry.regret it.do hope tt i wont flare up again.if we are gona chat later tonight.

signing off.gotta hit e showers n den iron e clothings!

*sneeze.i'm cold!argh!

yeah!finished wat i'm supposed to do for my microstation le!!heex.*wide smile*.now.just waiting for time to pass.n for nazirah to photo copy e stuff we need for tod.den i can leave le.heex.=)).gotta log off le.bye~

in class now.*yawn.capd is boring as usual.sigh.still gotta look at tt lect's face.sigh.supposed to have break now.but just too lazy to move abt.*yawn.woke up late today.heex.

yeah!internet connection is working again!!!!!!!!=)))))))))

sigh.had a rather bad conversation with you*.yet again.sigh.just duno why cant we have a nice conversation?sigh.guess its time for me to think abt e way i react to certain things le.yup.

`cryingmyheartout.cantyousee?

it has been nearly 7 months from that very day.actually its only like 2 more days to our 7th month.to be exact.the relationships has had its ups n downs.but we managed to pull through.it has been a eventful 7 months.just like a rollercoaster ride.yup.but i really enjoy the ride.its worth it.=)

till now he's been a rather good bf.very caring n stuff.but most importantly he's able to ren my childish temper.n all e nonsense i've thrown at him.but i, myself, noe tt it isnt right to just blame everything on him whenever anything goes wrong.its like i just blame everything on him whenever i'm pms-ing.n if i'm in a foul mood or wat.den he's in for it.so sometimes when i think about it.i kinda pity him.its not he's fault.yet he's blamed for it.poor thing.=(.so i've decided to change a lil.be lil more sensitive.n always think abt e consequences before i do anything.lets just hope i'm able to do wat i say.

he might not be e most xi xin bf ard.but i'm fine with tt.cos i love him for e way he is.=).i can tell tt he's been trying very hard to please me.to be like e perfect bf to me.but its not necessary.cos he's fine as e way he is.really.i dun expect much.cos i noe nobody's perfect.nobody will be.just wan him be him.n be like ard whenever i need him.for support.for comfort.sounds simple eh?

mayb at times when he's out with e guys.i might get a lil unhappy.duno why lehx.mayb cos he's out with them.so i like cant talk to him for long on e phone.or mayb when i msg him den he never reply n stuff.mayb tt's why i might get a lil frustrated when on e phone with him ba.i'm so sorry.tt lil green jeaslousy monster always gets me.whenever such things occur.ya.so forgive me k.if i like not in e mood to talk to ya when u're outside or wat k.

am i expecting too much from him?i hope not.cos i dun wana be like those "i wan u to do this.i wan u to do tt.NOW" gf.seems a lil too demanding.it might just worsen e relationship.sigh.so hope i wont turn into tt ba.*prays.

wat i wan out of this relationship?hmm.all e basic stuff lorx.e love.care.concern.comfort.n a lil attention ba.yup.i dun need a lot of it.just a lil will do.just make me feel like i'm part of you*.your* life.make me feel impt.which you've already accomplished.=).n its my turn.i've decided to like commit myself le.mayb some of u might say tt i'm still young lorx.not ready for such things.still playful n stuff.but i'm not!i mean.if someone treats u very well.but u dun commit.den arent u letting tt person down?hmm.

hmm.think i gotta change my attitude on e phone le.like keep purposely cause an arguement to arise like tt.sigh.so gotta change lorx.hmm.like this morning.we were hvaing a nice lil conversation.n i had to turn nasty.sigh.so turned out tt things werent going smoothly.yup.had an arguement.ya.=(.it has been happening very often lately.ya.happened last night too.sigh.think i gotta do some soul searching le.hmm.

hmm.shall end here le ba.nighties.

had a very bad conversation with him today.sigh.glad everything's ok le.

just realised tt my hair isnt e colour its supposed to be le.=(.it used to be copper red.but now its just brown.sigh.*sadded

hmm.did hsework.as usual.but this time i painted e wall!heex.painted e wall n jeremy's room door.n i made a mess outta it!lolx.used too much paint on certain places.n e paint just dripped down.

felt kinda lonely today.cos someone went to malaysia.sogh.which means tt i wasnt able to contact him for e whole day.sigh.no msges.no calls.no nothing.felt so alone.n empty.sigh.but guess things will most likely be like this when he's in e army le.so guess i'll just have to get used to it soon.or i'll really suffer.

hmm.still haven decided if i'm goin to change my layout.i've already got a design le.but.sigh.

`signing off.

hmm.shld i change my lay out?sigh.cant decide.

back in sch now.sigh.playing games.heex.eyes hurt.