schooled today.yup.nearly got outta bed late today!if it wasnt for a call.heex.rushed myself to sch.sigh.couldnt even make my lunch.sigh.=(
did e primer 2.again.so sick of it now!*argh.finished sewing e metal thingy today.fixed e angle n stuff le.jsut afraid tt e angle would be wrong again.sigh.hmm.den did e advertisement.powerpoint.n all e nitty gritty stuff.did quite alot today.*yeah.gotta go sch early tmr.den hopefully we'll end early.den probably can meet sm*sy*tiff tmr.hmm.meeting them in studio at 9am!hmm.
finally got my dreamcatcher le!!*yeah!so pretty!=)))))).hmm.shall take a photo n upload it soon ba.
loggin off le.ciao bloggie~
`nights!
Sunday, August 29, 2004
i'm so tired!
yesterday
had sch as usual.had e language lesson.was at t21.didnt know how to get there.so met up with chun meng first.hmm.so both of us headed down together.on e way there gave sherrie a call.she told me she was there le.ya.couldnt find her when we got there.heex.hmm.finally we found her.den we took e life up.saw twinkle's class leaving e place.hmm.chatted for a while.den headed for class le.had some difficulty looking for e room.managed to find e place.went in n saw terrence*jireh.they were in class ever since 9.kiasu!hmm.was doin e recording tt day.hmm.i started everything.heex.so went i was doin my recording.only like 6 audience.so not so much pressure.sat there listening.yup.class ended at like 1140am.den huirong*sherrie*laoda*terrence*jireh*xiaohong*me headed to fc6 for lunch.told him tt tt area every crowded.n he said of cos la.down there is cbd area lehx.lolx.
den went to newton le.started painting at like 130pm.hmm.decided on e colour of e distorted keyboard.mixed a few colours.was kinda fun n slack too.didnt paint much.cos no space for me to paint.either too high or someone else paint le.oh ya.i like totally destroyed laoda's henderson pe t-shirt!opps!keep kana scolding from him.blueh.took a few pics of them painting.n e walls.ya.so kuku lorx.den stupid junteh kept saying tt i very zhi lian.hmm.we were playing music ma.den he like kept singing lorx!he's singing is worse than mine.he's like totally mono tone.can u imagine?someone worse than me?i'm bad eonough le.heex.
painted till like 5.den i had to rush down to tbp to meet delia*clar*mich*their frenwas like super late lorx.heex.they waited for me for like 2 hrs.eek!den went back to stc.while crossing e over head bridge gave xuezhen a call.heex.headed to e auditorium.was kinda disappointed tt e concert was held there.but nvm ba.was great to be back too!*smiles.hmm.gave xuezhen a great big hug when i saw her.miss her to bits n pieces!been so long!took a pic with her before e concert.guess wat?e concert theme was Close To You.been so stucked on tt song.heex.meaningful.*winks.was a lil disappointed with e concert la.cos e amplifiers werent helping.e guitars were not properly plugged in.was well rehearsed.but.nvm ba.still enjoyed myself.some of e items totally rawked!den mr patrick ng performed an item for his gf lorx.omg!he's voice isnt tt bad!e song was just right lorx.*heart melts.like so awwww!*winks.some of e songs reminded me of stuff.but e songs they chose were great!
headed backstage after tt.hugs almost everyone.teared slightly.when i saw e sec4s.esp elis.hmm.den went to e hardcourt.took pics with lotsa people.will upload them when i have e time ba.had jelly!was made by mrs fung.been so long since i've had her jelly.was yummy!*smiles.love e jelly she makes!n e cakes!=)))).always get them on oct 1st.heex.chatted with mrs fung*mrs gomez for a while.den sat at e hard court with jo*xuezhen*delia*bunkie*sharon ng.mich*clar went off first.had a talk with my dearestmaggielee.heex.ya.oh ya!!saw tiff's dearestmryeo at e concert.he has white hair le!!!so stress ah.lolx.hmm.
xuezhen's fren han sen gave jo*delia*me a lift home.ya.so nonesense lorx.e ride home.was fun!kept crapping n crapping!den they said i've gone cazy ever since i've stepped into poly.lolx.i totally agree!heex.
walked home from e mrt station.gave him a call.but he couldnt talk for long.so was like alone walking home.got home.gave him a call again.n yet again he couldnt talk for long.sigh.guess its alright ba.ya.had my bathe.den watched a lil tv.n had to slp early.cos i had to wakey early.ya.disturbed pam before i slept.heex.was great!
today
woke up at like 730am.cos e stupid alarm just kept ringing.n ringing.got irritated.so i just decided to wake up.bathed.n waited for everyone else to get up.
went to uncle's place.had like breakfast cum lunch there.den headed down to paipai le.ya.e place was like so crowded lorx.den e smoke from e incense was like so much!was like hurting my eyes.argh!
hmm.guess yesterday was more exciting than today ba.sigh.today was kinda sad day for me.sigh.shall not mention it le.=(.
nights!
yesterday
had sch as usual.had e language lesson.was at t21.didnt know how to get there.so met up with chun meng first.hmm.so both of us headed down together.on e way there gave sherrie a call.she told me she was there le.ya.couldnt find her when we got there.heex.hmm.finally we found her.den we took e life up.saw twinkle's class leaving e place.hmm.chatted for a while.den headed for class le.had some difficulty looking for e room.managed to find e place.went in n saw terrence*jireh.they were in class ever since 9.kiasu!hmm.was doin e recording tt day.hmm.i started everything.heex.so went i was doin my recording.only like 6 audience.so not so much pressure.sat there listening.yup.class ended at like 1140am.den huirong*sherrie*laoda*terrence*jireh*xiaohong*me headed to fc6 for lunch.told him tt tt area every crowded.n he said of cos la.down there is cbd area lehx.lolx.
den went to newton le.started painting at like 130pm.hmm.decided on e colour of e distorted keyboard.mixed a few colours.was kinda fun n slack too.didnt paint much.cos no space for me to paint.either too high or someone else paint le.oh ya.i like totally destroyed laoda's henderson pe t-shirt!opps!keep kana scolding from him.blueh.took a few pics of them painting.n e walls.ya.so kuku lorx.den stupid junteh kept saying tt i very zhi lian.hmm.we were playing music ma.den he like kept singing lorx!he's singing is worse than mine.he's like totally mono tone.can u imagine?someone worse than me?i'm bad eonough le.heex.
painted till like 5.den i had to rush down to tbp to meet delia*clar*mich*their frenwas like super late lorx.heex.they waited for me for like 2 hrs.eek!den went back to stc.while crossing e over head bridge gave xuezhen a call.heex.headed to e auditorium.was kinda disappointed tt e concert was held there.but nvm ba.was great to be back too!*smiles.hmm.gave xuezhen a great big hug when i saw her.miss her to bits n pieces!been so long!took a pic with her before e concert.guess wat?e concert theme was Close To You.been so stucked on tt song.heex.meaningful.*winks.was a lil disappointed with e concert la.cos e amplifiers werent helping.e guitars were not properly plugged in.was well rehearsed.but.nvm ba.still enjoyed myself.some of e items totally rawked!den mr patrick ng performed an item for his gf lorx.omg!he's voice isnt tt bad!e song was just right lorx.*heart melts.like so awwww!*winks.some of e songs reminded me of stuff.but e songs they chose were great!
headed backstage after tt.hugs almost everyone.teared slightly.when i saw e sec4s.esp elis.hmm.den went to e hardcourt.took pics with lotsa people.will upload them when i have e time ba.had jelly!was made by mrs fung.been so long since i've had her jelly.was yummy!*smiles.love e jelly she makes!n e cakes!=)))).always get them on oct 1st.heex.chatted with mrs fung*mrs gomez for a while.den sat at e hard court with jo*xuezhen*delia*bunkie*sharon ng.mich*clar went off first.had a talk with my dearestmaggielee.heex.ya.oh ya!!saw tiff's dearestmryeo at e concert.he has white hair le!!!so stress ah.lolx.hmm.
xuezhen's fren han sen gave jo*delia*me a lift home.ya.so nonesense lorx.e ride home.was fun!kept crapping n crapping!den they said i've gone cazy ever since i've stepped into poly.lolx.i totally agree!heex.
walked home from e mrt station.gave him a call.but he couldnt talk for long.so was like alone walking home.got home.gave him a call again.n yet again he couldnt talk for long.sigh.guess its alright ba.ya.had my bathe.den watched a lil tv.n had to slp early.cos i had to wakey early.ya.disturbed pam before i slept.heex.was great!
today
woke up at like 730am.cos e stupid alarm just kept ringing.n ringing.got irritated.so i just decided to wake up.bathed.n waited for everyone else to get up.
went to uncle's place.had like breakfast cum lunch there.den headed down to paipai le.ya.e place was like so crowded lorx.den e smoke from e incense was like so much!was like hurting my eyes.argh!
hmm.guess yesterday was more exciting than today ba.sigh.today was kinda sad day for me.sigh.shall not mention it le.=(.
nights!
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
my skin is so dry!*argh.its in bad condition.sigh.gotta get enough slp.n h2o le.`sadded.so chou.=(
hmm.had sch today.did microstation early in e morning at 8am!!*argh.wat a way to start e day huh?hmm.hate microstation.*argh.but it seems like i'm doin ok with it.if i get e lect or e instructions is talking abt.hmm.did todays work rather fast.cos was rather simple.ya.only needed to do e pentable den print lorx.yup.hmm.print le den give doshi check.yupyup.hmm.den ended e calss at like 10plus lorx.hmm.cos was waiting for huirong*sherrie.
hmm.den went to have a light lunch at fc1.saw terrence*laoda*xiaohong*jireh*junteh abt to finish their lunch.hmm.sat with them.huirong*sherrie*me had sandwiches for lunch.hmm.den headed back together with e guys to e studio.cos luit giving briefing for primer2 at 11 ma.hmm.after e briefing was our lunch break.but as we already had lunch.we didnt go.went to do our primer2 project.sherrie*me went over to look for twinkle*shiqi.did some of e powerpoint thingy.den scanned e pics.took some pics.hmm.couldnt do much cos e metal piece was with henry.*sigh.hmm.
we concluded that sherrie=motherly*shiqi=fierce mother*twinkle=blur girl*me=needs to looked after.lolx.
was munching biscuits while doin e primer2 thingy.*yummy.had e grape one.n e lemon one.all sponsored by e motherly sherrie.heex.sherrie's so gona kill me if she sees this.heex.hmm.
henry came to sch like 3pm.passed us e metal piece.hmm.we fixed e mirror n velcro to e metal piece.n tried e thingy.see if it works.hmm.panicked when we realised tt e thingy was in e right angle.*stress.but managed to find a solution.
watching anime!heex.gash is so cute!!!!AHHH!!!kiyomaru is so nonesense!!lolx.
ok.back to today.hmm.headed to e examinations office to help pam collect her cert.hmm.finally i went to collect it.heex.den went to meet him at his work place there.den we went to queensway.walked ard for awhile.den we went over to macs.sat down n had ice cream.despite e cold weather.n had fries.n iced milo.heex.wat a spread eh?hmm.sat there till abt 730pm ba.hmm.spent some quality time together ba.heex.enjoy spending time with him.hmm.after tt he sent me home.took 100.den he headed down town to meet his ex colleagues for dinner.ya.guess he's still there.hmm.
anime finish le.gotta wait till pam downloads more le.heex.hmm.will be signing off le.nights!
*muacks!
hmm.had sch today.did microstation early in e morning at 8am!!*argh.wat a way to start e day huh?hmm.hate microstation.*argh.but it seems like i'm doin ok with it.if i get e lect or e instructions is talking abt.hmm.did todays work rather fast.cos was rather simple.ya.only needed to do e pentable den print lorx.yup.hmm.print le den give doshi check.yupyup.hmm.den ended e calss at like 10plus lorx.hmm.cos was waiting for huirong*sherrie.
hmm.den went to have a light lunch at fc1.saw terrence*laoda*xiaohong*jireh*junteh abt to finish their lunch.hmm.sat with them.huirong*sherrie*me had sandwiches for lunch.hmm.den headed back together with e guys to e studio.cos luit giving briefing for primer2 at 11 ma.hmm.after e briefing was our lunch break.but as we already had lunch.we didnt go.went to do our primer2 project.sherrie*me went over to look for twinkle*shiqi.did some of e powerpoint thingy.den scanned e pics.took some pics.hmm.couldnt do much cos e metal piece was with henry.*sigh.hmm.
we concluded that sherrie=motherly*shiqi=fierce mother*twinkle=blur girl*me=needs to looked after.lolx.
was munching biscuits while doin e primer2 thingy.*yummy.had e grape one.n e lemon one.all sponsored by e motherly sherrie.heex.sherrie's so gona kill me if she sees this.heex.hmm.
henry came to sch like 3pm.passed us e metal piece.hmm.we fixed e mirror n velcro to e metal piece.n tried e thingy.see if it works.hmm.panicked when we realised tt e thingy was in e right angle.*stress.but managed to find a solution.
watching anime!heex.gash is so cute!!!!AHHH!!!kiyomaru is so nonesense!!lolx.
ok.back to today.hmm.headed to e examinations office to help pam collect her cert.hmm.finally i went to collect it.heex.den went to meet him at his work place there.den we went to queensway.walked ard for awhile.den we went over to macs.sat down n had ice cream.despite e cold weather.n had fries.n iced milo.heex.wat a spread eh?hmm.sat there till abt 730pm ba.hmm.spent some quality time together ba.heex.enjoy spending time with him.hmm.after tt he sent me home.took 100.den he headed down town to meet his ex colleagues for dinner.ya.guess he's still there.hmm.
anime finish le.gotta wait till pam downloads more le.heex.hmm.will be signing off le.nights!
*muacks!
Sunday, August 22, 2004
Friday, August 20, 2004
i know it's been quite sometime i came online and probably blog a long blog.kinda lazy i must say.sorry to those who have been reading my blog and realized that i didn't keep it updated.=(.
today went to school as per normal.
today went to school as per normal.
nothing much actually happened.he only responded to me at ard 315pm or so.at that time,i was doing project with twinkle and the rest.chat awhile on the phone.told him that we were ending class early.ya.actually wanted to like meet him for awhile oso can.ya.but guess he was too tired to answer me at that time.so i asked him to stayed home and rest.=(.then he said that i didn't mean what i said cos he knows that i wanted to meet him from my voice.but i really wanted him to rest at home tho inside wanting to meet.ya.
guess what.*surprised look*.received a sms from him saying that he'll meet me at clementi.=).met up and went kfc for dinner.this time no money treat him so in the end,he'll have to pay once again.*guilty* after eating,went over to holland village to get his pda sticker for his hp screen as clementi doesn't sell.took 106 over.had a funny time while waiting for the bus and in the bus itself."boy,you know what i'm reffering to eh..." *winks* managed to get hold of the sticker but he didn't buy as the shop owner say the sticker cover for specific hps will be out in a few days time.=.honest owner.
after that went shopping ard in hv.the time we spend was short but it's felt so sweet.looking at cute stuffs,kitten(look like garfeild) etc.i even mentioned to him that in future,if he can afford,he'll have to pay for my monthly 'manucure'.haha.=).after that,he walked me home from hv.the feeling was so sweet.=).
the sad news came when he said he will be going out with his friends over to clementi kbox.sad not becoz he's going but that means nobody can accompany me chat.guess i'll shalln't be selfish.cos i oso can't pei him out late.sometimes i really detest why i was born like that.sigh.=(.
stayed home waiting for him to sms me knowing i wouldn't get much of it cos he's been over using his sms ler. slack till abt 115am.he called!yeah!=).but guess from all my slacking on bed plus so late ler,i gave him a sian voice.said he will be going for his dinner,as he haven't eaten, then head home.i was to tired to wait up so told him i was hitting the sack soon.=(.
the sad news came when he said he will be going out with his friends over to clementi kbox.sad not becoz he's going but that means nobody can accompany me chat.guess i'll shalln't be selfish.cos i oso can't pei him out late.sometimes i really detest why i was born like that.sigh.=(.
stayed home waiting for him to sms me knowing i wouldn't get much of it cos he's been over using his sms ler. slack till abt 115am.he called!yeah!=).but guess from all my slacking on bed plus so late ler,i gave him a sian voice.said he will be going for his dinner,as he haven't eaten, then head home.i was to tired to wait up so told him i was hitting the sack soon.=(.
for him:
i know sometimes i'm abit childish giving you so much of my attitude but i really didn't mean it.i'll try to change k.i know alot of things i said i'll try ler but no results but i really try k.you've been very patient with me i know.giving in all the time.duno bah.maybe i used to your pampering ler.ya.i hope maybe tommorrow can meet you again but if cannot,really nvm but sat i will deffinately meet you.*winks*ya. k bah.tired ler.
`nights
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
Sunday, August 15, 2004
spent the whole of today out.yup.
had dinner over at auntie's place.had stem boat.hmm.cos was celebrating jessica's 12th birthday.yup.her birthday's on mon.hmm.ate quite alot.such a sin.had chocolate cake!*yummy.argh.which means i'll have to work extra hard to get rid of e excess weight.sigh.=(
thought alot today.was in mum's car.staring outta window when it popped into my brain.ya.kinda dn wish to think abt tt person.but just couldnt help it.sigh.=(.if u guys think tt i'm talking abt my ex.den u're wrong.this person isnt connected to me.not directly la.hmm.ya.but tt person just keeps poppin into my head.without a particular reason.sigh.this isnt e first time le.*argh.
it makes me feel sad.jealous at times.sigh.i noe tt it isnt fair if i just turn moody of outta e blue.without giving u a reason.ya.so i just remained normal.ya.msged u like i always do.chatted with ya like i always do.so tt u wont suspect a thing.didnt wana spoil ur day out with them.so didnt tell u.hope u wont blame me.i did told u to come here to read.right?ya.sorry k.for like hiding things from u again.
*argh.hate this feeling.sigh.but guess its without a choice tt i have to feel this way.*sigh.i noe it all happened in e past.but i just cant help but think abt it.ever since u told me.sigh.u've been telling quite a bit le.ya.n its STUCK in me.sigh.i duno why.dun ask me.sigh.duno if i'll be able to like take it as a normal comment or not.but i'll have to try harder.cos i really dun like the feeling.
*argh.i really have to stop thinking abt it.sigh.goin to log off le.ya.make myself stop thinking abt it.
`nights
had dinner over at auntie's place.had stem boat.hmm.cos was celebrating jessica's 12th birthday.yup.her birthday's on mon.hmm.ate quite alot.such a sin.had chocolate cake!*yummy.argh.which means i'll have to work extra hard to get rid of e excess weight.sigh.=(
thought alot today.was in mum's car.staring outta window when it popped into my brain.ya.kinda dn wish to think abt tt person.but just couldnt help it.sigh.=(.if u guys think tt i'm talking abt my ex.den u're wrong.this person isnt connected to me.not directly la.hmm.ya.but tt person just keeps poppin into my head.without a particular reason.sigh.this isnt e first time le.*argh.
it makes me feel sad.jealous at times.sigh.i noe tt it isnt fair if i just turn moody of outta e blue.without giving u a reason.ya.so i just remained normal.ya.msged u like i always do.chatted with ya like i always do.so tt u wont suspect a thing.didnt wana spoil ur day out with them.so didnt tell u.hope u wont blame me.i did told u to come here to read.right?ya.sorry k.for like hiding things from u again.
*argh.hate this feeling.sigh.but guess its without a choice tt i have to feel this way.*sigh.i noe it all happened in e past.but i just cant help but think abt it.ever since u told me.sigh.u've been telling quite a bit le.ya.n its STUCK in me.sigh.i duno why.dun ask me.sigh.duno if i'll be able to like take it as a normal comment or not.but i'll have to try harder.cos i really dun like the feeling.
*argh.i really have to stop thinking abt it.sigh.goin to log off le.ya.make myself stop thinking abt it.
`nights
Thursday, August 12, 2004
just finsihed with my report!yeah!*happy.did e drawing n everything le.heex.*happy.so i've lesser work for weekend!*cheers.
hmm.heard tt mandy moore n jonathon foreman song.really like tt song a lot.cos of e movie.if anyone rems.tt song was from e movie "a walk to remember".n e song title is "someday we'll know".kinda brings back memories.sigh.sweet memories are great.but not e sad ones.=(.aiya.gotta stop thinking abt it le.its affecting my mood.and i'm like pms-ing lorx.sigh.so its not good.
woke up late again.argh.den took e wrong bus by accident.double argh!so was late for like abt 15mins.was supposed to meet terrence*sherrie*huirong at 9 to do our project.got there n realised i wasnt e lastest.heex.hmm.brought my fav cookies to sch today!=)))).ate quite alot.shared with them n twinkle too.hmm.love those cookies!*yummy.
did project today.erm.another one la.with sherrie*twinkle*henry*shiqi one.e body furniture one.hmm.came out with lotsa funny ideas.n now we're just down to 2.goota decide which one we wana use le.hmm.e lects were just laughing away.when we told them our ideas.lolx.made us laugh too.
think i've gotta start dieting n exercising le.=(.gotta stop eat all tt junk food.gotta resist!hmm.n my pimples are popping out!gross.hurts alot!ahhh!n i've gotta keep my hands off them.hmm.
been taking lotsa self portraits using other people's phone lately.heex.used like kelvin[laoda]*junda.heex.so now their phones have lotsa pics of me!heex.n they were like complaining n complaining.say tt i zhi lian kuang.am i?hmm.wanted to take more today.using junda's N7200.but he stopped me.he said inside still got alot of my pics.n i still wana take.sadded.sigh.nvm ba.shall play with other people's le.heex.*looks out for next target.
been pms-ing today.sigh.tt isnt a gd sign.sigh.so beware.do not provoke me these few days.i might just flare up on ya.i sound like such a meanie.=(.
hmm.been rather bad to him today.just flared up at him for no apparent reason.sigh.guess he's feeling kinda down.i kinda feel like i'm bullying him.sigh.n after wat he saw on my msn.guess he felt even worse.=(.so sorry.regret it.do hope tt i wont flare up again.if we are gona chat later tonight.
signing off.gotta hit e showers n den iron e clothings!
hmm.heard tt mandy moore n jonathon foreman song.really like tt song a lot.cos of e movie.if anyone rems.tt song was from e movie "a walk to remember".n e song title is "someday we'll know".kinda brings back memories.sigh.sweet memories are great.but not e sad ones.=(.aiya.gotta stop thinking abt it le.its affecting my mood.and i'm like pms-ing lorx.sigh.so its not good.
woke up late again.argh.den took e wrong bus by accident.double argh!so was late for like abt 15mins.was supposed to meet terrence*sherrie*huirong at 9 to do our project.got there n realised i wasnt e lastest.heex.hmm.brought my fav cookies to sch today!=)))).ate quite alot.shared with them n twinkle too.hmm.love those cookies!*yummy.
did project today.erm.another one la.with sherrie*twinkle*henry*shiqi one.e body furniture one.hmm.came out with lotsa funny ideas.n now we're just down to 2.goota decide which one we wana use le.hmm.e lects were just laughing away.when we told them our ideas.lolx.made us laugh too.
think i've gotta start dieting n exercising le.=(.gotta stop eat all tt junk food.gotta resist!hmm.n my pimples are popping out!gross.hurts alot!ahhh!n i've gotta keep my hands off them.hmm.
been taking lotsa self portraits using other people's phone lately.heex.used like kelvin[laoda]*junda.heex.so now their phones have lotsa pics of me!heex.n they were like complaining n complaining.say tt i zhi lian kuang.am i?hmm.wanted to take more today.using junda's N7200.but he stopped me.he said inside still got alot of my pics.n i still wana take.sadded.sigh.nvm ba.shall play with other people's le.heex.*looks out for next target.
been pms-ing today.sigh.tt isnt a gd sign.sigh.so beware.do not provoke me these few days.i might just flare up on ya.i sound like such a meanie.=(.
hmm.been rather bad to him today.just flared up at him for no apparent reason.sigh.guess he's feeling kinda down.i kinda feel like i'm bullying him.sigh.n after wat he saw on my msn.guess he felt even worse.=(.so sorry.regret it.do hope tt i wont flare up again.if we are gona chat later tonight.
signing off.gotta hit e showers n den iron e clothings!
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Thursday, August 05, 2004
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
it has been nearly 7 months from that very day.actually its only like 2 more days to our 7th month.to be exact.the relationships has had its ups n downs.but we managed to pull through.it has been a eventful 7 months.just like a rollercoaster ride.yup.but i really enjoy the ride.its worth it.=)
till now he's been a rather good bf.very caring n stuff.but most importantly he's able to ren my childish temper.n all e nonsense i've thrown at him.but i, myself, noe tt it isnt right to just blame everything on him whenever anything goes wrong.its like i just blame everything on him whenever i'm pms-ing.n if i'm in a foul mood or wat.den he's in for it.so sometimes when i think about it.i kinda pity him.its not he's fault.yet he's blamed for it.poor thing.=(.so i've decided to change a lil.be lil more sensitive.n always think abt e consequences before i do anything.lets just hope i'm able to do wat i say.
he might not be e most xi xin bf ard.but i'm fine with tt.cos i love him for e way he is.=).i can tell tt he's been trying very hard to please me.to be like e perfect bf to me.but its not necessary.cos he's fine as e way he is.really.i dun expect much.cos i noe nobody's perfect.nobody will be.just wan him be him.n be like ard whenever i need him.for support.for comfort.sounds simple eh?
mayb at times when he's out with e guys.i might get a lil unhappy.duno why lehx.mayb cos he's out with them.so i like cant talk to him for long on e phone.or mayb when i msg him den he never reply n stuff.mayb tt's why i might get a lil frustrated when on e phone with him ba.i'm so sorry.tt lil green jeaslousy monster always gets me.whenever such things occur.ya.so forgive me k.if i like not in e mood to talk to ya when u're outside or wat k.
am i expecting too much from him?i hope not.cos i dun wana be like those "i wan u to do this.i wan u to do tt.NOW" gf.seems a lil too demanding.it might just worsen e relationship.sigh.so hope i wont turn into tt ba.*prays.
wat i wan out of this relationship?hmm.all e basic stuff lorx.e love.care.concern.comfort.n a lil attention ba.yup.i dun need a lot of it.just a lil will do.just make me feel like i'm part of you*.your* life.make me feel impt.which you've already accomplished.=).n its my turn.i've decided to like commit myself le.mayb some of u might say tt i'm still young lorx.not ready for such things.still playful n stuff.but i'm not!i mean.if someone treats u very well.but u dun commit.den arent u letting tt person down?hmm.
hmm.think i gotta change my attitude on e phone le.like keep purposely cause an arguement to arise like tt.sigh.so gotta change lorx.hmm.like this morning.we were hvaing a nice lil conversation.n i had to turn nasty.sigh.so turned out tt things werent going smoothly.yup.had an arguement.ya.=(.it has been happening very often lately.ya.happened last night too.sigh.think i gotta do some soul searching le.hmm.
hmm.shall end here le ba.nighties.
till now he's been a rather good bf.very caring n stuff.but most importantly he's able to ren my childish temper.n all e nonsense i've thrown at him.but i, myself, noe tt it isnt right to just blame everything on him whenever anything goes wrong.its like i just blame everything on him whenever i'm pms-ing.n if i'm in a foul mood or wat.den he's in for it.so sometimes when i think about it.i kinda pity him.its not he's fault.yet he's blamed for it.poor thing.=(.so i've decided to change a lil.be lil more sensitive.n always think abt e consequences before i do anything.lets just hope i'm able to do wat i say.
he might not be e most xi xin bf ard.but i'm fine with tt.cos i love him for e way he is.=).i can tell tt he's been trying very hard to please me.to be like e perfect bf to me.but its not necessary.cos he's fine as e way he is.really.i dun expect much.cos i noe nobody's perfect.nobody will be.just wan him be him.n be like ard whenever i need him.for support.for comfort.sounds simple eh?
mayb at times when he's out with e guys.i might get a lil unhappy.duno why lehx.mayb cos he's out with them.so i like cant talk to him for long on e phone.or mayb when i msg him den he never reply n stuff.mayb tt's why i might get a lil frustrated when on e phone with him ba.i'm so sorry.tt lil green jeaslousy monster always gets me.whenever such things occur.ya.so forgive me k.if i like not in e mood to talk to ya when u're outside or wat k.
am i expecting too much from him?i hope not.cos i dun wana be like those "i wan u to do this.i wan u to do tt.NOW" gf.seems a lil too demanding.it might just worsen e relationship.sigh.so hope i wont turn into tt ba.*prays.
wat i wan out of this relationship?hmm.all e basic stuff lorx.e love.care.concern.comfort.n a lil attention ba.yup.i dun need a lot of it.just a lil will do.just make me feel like i'm part of you*.your* life.make me feel impt.which you've already accomplished.=).n its my turn.i've decided to like commit myself le.mayb some of u might say tt i'm still young lorx.not ready for such things.still playful n stuff.but i'm not!i mean.if someone treats u very well.but u dun commit.den arent u letting tt person down?hmm.
hmm.think i gotta change my attitude on e phone le.like keep purposely cause an arguement to arise like tt.sigh.so gotta change lorx.hmm.like this morning.we were hvaing a nice lil conversation.n i had to turn nasty.sigh.so turned out tt things werent going smoothly.yup.had an arguement.ya.=(.it has been happening very often lately.ya.happened last night too.sigh.think i gotta do some soul searching le.hmm.
hmm.shall end here le ba.nighties.
Monday, August 02, 2004
just realised tt my hair isnt e colour its supposed to be le.=(.it used to be copper red.but now its just brown.sigh.*sadded
hmm.did hsework.as usual.but this time i painted e wall!heex.painted e wall n jeremy's room door.n i made a mess outta it!lolx.used too much paint on certain places.n e paint just dripped down.
felt kinda lonely today.cos someone went to malaysia.sogh.which means tt i wasnt able to contact him for e whole day.sigh.no msges.no calls.no nothing.felt so alone.n empty.sigh.but guess things will most likely be like this when he's in e army le.so guess i'll just have to get used to it soon.or i'll really suffer.
hmm.still haven decided if i'm goin to change my layout.i've already got a design le.but.sigh.
`signing off.
hmm.did hsework.as usual.but this time i painted e wall!heex.painted e wall n jeremy's room door.n i made a mess outta it!lolx.used too much paint on certain places.n e paint just dripped down.
felt kinda lonely today.cos someone went to malaysia.sogh.which means tt i wasnt able to contact him for e whole day.sigh.no msges.no calls.no nothing.felt so alone.n empty.sigh.but guess things will most likely be like this when he's in e army le.so guess i'll just have to get used to it soon.or i'll really suffer.
hmm.still haven decided if i'm goin to change my layout.i've already got a design le.but.sigh.
`signing off.
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